joyce71922
Apr 18, 2012, 06:20 PM
I am ready to kill myself I don't know what to do anymore going in the hospital barely able to stand so dizzy leaving the same. I am bedridden now and have a 7 year old. I have problems in my bloodwork but the er never helps me and the docs are not working fast enough especially when I can barely make it to the appointments. I am the only one who drives in my house. To top that off I go to the hospital so much they think I'm there for drugs so whenever I go I have to justify myself and downplay my pain and I do suffer from anxeity but have for almost 20 years and didn't have these symptoms until a couple of years ago. Once I mention the word anxeity I become a person who does not know anything. My bp is very low 90/60 and it shows in my bloodwork. Even when the ambulance comes here they do not take my vitals anymore because they think I'm faking. I can't live like this anymore. I am not a depressed miserable person I love life that is what makes this so sad.