I'm a 13 year old girl & I live in a really rich town & I go to a really good public school. I'm really popular & I always have been my whole life. A couple months back, I got into a fight with a very close friend of mine. She spread vicious rumors about me, lied to me to both my friends & other classmates, & the school administration. I ended up getting suspended, so I lost all respect from my teachers. If you're wondering what the fight was about, it was because she was really mean to me & so I told my other friend about it & she overheard us talking about it, so she thought I was talking sh** about her. She went on from there to make a huge deal about it & make it look like I talked bad about my other best friends by faking text messages & also saying I smoke, drink, sleep with guys, etc. (all lies, I have never done any of those).

Anyway, so now everybody, including my teachers, and everyone in the grade above me & also my grade, hates me. & I hate it so much because I just want them to leave me alone, everywhere I go people give me dirty looks, I can't even walk down the hallway without someone being mean to me. I've learned a lot from this situation, & I'm starting to make a new group of friends who actually care about me & are true to me. But I still cry myself to sleep every night, all because a bunch of stupid rumors messed up my life. Normally I ignore rumors, because I know that in 5 years from now, none of this sh** will matter. And I try to pretend I don't care, when I see my old friends who absolutely hate my guts. But it's just really hard for me to keep going every day.

I cut myself almost every day, I cry at least 1-2 times a day, I've attempted suicide, but I just know I have something to live for. My parents don't care about me, as I said I live in a rich town so they're too focused on work. They hit me a lot, but I'm not going to be one of those kids who calls it "child abuse", because I know other kids have it worse than me. The worse they've ever done was give me 2 bruises on my back & 1 on my arm, and I just locked myself in my room & put stuff up against the door so they'd stop hitting me. It's not that big a deal, I mean like its not like Casey Anthony or something bad like that, so it's fine. But.. That's when I realized, I really have no one. I was laying on the floor crying, saying I need somebody to help me, & I kept saying I need a friend I need a friend I need a friend. I needed a friend to talk to about what was going on, someone who could tell me everything was going to be all right... But I didn't have anyone. & the reason my parents hit me was because I had bad grades, but the reason I have bad grades is, well try sitting in a room with 30 kids who hates you, and a teacher who thinks you're a horrible person. And the other kids throw notes at me saying mean things, & threatening me.

I can't focus. It's partly because I have ADHD (oh, which by the way people actually make fun of me for.. ). I just want my life back... And every once in a while I do break down & cry in front of everyone, but I just can't help it sometimes... It's really hard for me to open up to people, so the people who were my friends before don't understand either.. They think I have a perfect life because my parents buy me stuff to make up for hitting me & not paying attention to me. So what, I have cool stuff & nice clothes? I'd take a mom & dad who care, & a group of friends over that ANY DAY!

I've tried to talk to my school counselor about my friend problems, but she doesn't have any respect for me either because of the suspension. (BTW, the suspension was for "bullying" the girl who I got in a fight with- the one who spread all the rumors about me & lied about me). No one will help me, and I have been all alone for seriously the past 6 months. Every day is another day in hell for me. & my parents won't let me switch schools. There's this one girl, who I used to be really close friends with, and this other girl who was my best friend for 4 years. And they hate me, & now I know that they were never really my true friends... They take the rumors that the girl who I got in a fight with- lets call her Melissa*. So they take Melissa's rumors, & since they are really popular they spread them to everyone, especially people at other schools. I am scared to go to high school now, because they will all be there. A month or so ago, I found out Melissa tells everyone that her dad left her & her family & she tells everyone this to make them feel bad for her. This is not true, I have been friends with Melissa for 8 years & her dad just goes on business trips a lot. I remember she even told me "haha let's tell him my dad left us so he'll feel bad for me and pay for me!". That is part of the reason I didn't like her which got us in a fight...

Okay sorry that was a lot but I just needed to rant about it I have no one... & I don't know if anyone will even read this, so PLEASE HELP ME WHAT DO I DO?! I just want my life back, and to be left alone by those people who used to be my friends because they torture me everyday. PLEASE HELP ME :( <3

Does any one besides you know that you are cutting? Do you take meds regularly, and are you currently under a doctors supervision for ADHD? You have found the best place to rant and get support, but we do need a few more facts, please.

First why did you get suspended, and no not every teacher and every student things bad of you, that is what you think now since you have gotten a attitude that everything is bad.

So what if someone is talking about you, so what if some of the students don't like you. People that really know you, will know it isnot true, There will always be someone in life who is going to lie about you, talk about you behind your back, learning to deal with how you feel about yourself is the issue.

And no, your parents hitting you is a issue, that needs to be reported and is child abuse. That does not help with your other issues.

Call social services, report it all and get the help you need.

@talaniman yes, my school counselor knows I cut because apparently somebody told her. She called my mom while I was in the room and I heard her talk to her, but when I got home from school my mom asked me if it was true. I said yes, and she was just like "oh.." and that was it. I don't take any other medication, and I've had ADHD for years but my parents have never wanted me to take medication for it so I haven't.

Write a letter to your mom telling her that you really do need some help with this issue, and if she doesn't see this as a concern still, I think you go back to your school counselor, and ask her why you cannot get your parents to help you.

Keep reaching out for the help you need until you get a responsible adult to listen. Try to stay calm, and in control, as 13 is hard enough without full support.

That you have reached out, is a great sign.

I'm going out of line here, but I'll say it anyway: I think you should refuse to go to school so that your parents realize how bad this is for you. If your parents are well off they can send you to private school. I don't agree that you can just look the other way when faced with a crowd that hates you. And at 13 it isn't easy to formulate the words of wisdom in front of a mean crowd that could explain what happened. If you have ADD and are cutting and you flew off the handle enough to 'bully' the girl who spread lies, which I have to assume means some physical fighting, then you need another school. So, I would refuse to go. No amount of pushing and yelling can force you onto a bus or into a car. They will have to deal with this.

STOP IT NOW!
Stop feeling bad!
There is a reason why you were popular, and that is because you are AMAZING.
So take the bus to another city and find some new friends! As soon as the others will see you are happy and ignoring them they will want to be your friend again.
Try to hang out with the boys in school, they are much more careless about these kind of things. Play with them and so more sport, its good for you and your environment!
Hugs!

First of all, reading this made me cry. I too know how it feels to have a town where you are disliked. I live in douchebag ville, where people suck. I speak out against things that are wrong. I help people like you. I have long hair. I like star wars. I ride my bike. People think I'm a loser. I have 3 friends and that's it. I'm dying for this one girl I need. I'm pissed at stuff too. Don't listen to the guy who told you to take a bus. That's stupid. And teachers, I've found, suck. Administration sucks. That girls who used to be your friend is a . You need to stop cutting yourself. I may be starting my freshman year of high school, but trust me. Life will be better as you get older. Once you find your voice to stand up to all those losers you will feel better. Even one bruise from a parent should never happen. I'm glad your not snobby. If you've been to the point of cutting, and barricading yourself in your room to be safe from your parents, you need to tell a real counselor, not some half assed person from a school that only knows how to say like "i'm sorry," and "things wll be better." you need a real counselor, or you need to talk to the police. Please. If your parents have given you 2 bruises, there will be worse injuries from them. Stay away from them when they have alcohol if they drink. This is horrible, but tell your neighbor. If your parents ever try to seriously hurt you, you throw something hard at them and you run to a neighbor as fast as you can and you tell them to let you in because you're being attacked. This is not a joke.no part of your situation is a joke. >Private email address removed<. People drive by me and yell " you you little hole" almost everyday. I know what it's like to be disliked. I really hope things improve. My heart is with you.