khawley3413
Apr 7, 2012, 02:11 PM
I've been in a relationship for almost 4 years. I'm 22 and we met our senior year of high school. I met him a few months after getting my heart ripped out after a year and a half relationship. 3 or 4 months later I started dating my current boyfriend. I thought he was great, he stepped into my life and I thought the world of him. I still had feelings for my ex, who basically cut off all ties with me until he heard I had a new boyfriend. That's when he came back into my life saying how much he still loves me, being young and naïve I was confused. I ended up secretly hanging out with my ex behind my current boyfriends back, and wound up telling my current boyfriend I wanted a break. I ended up hooking up with my ex and regretting it, patching things back up with the current boyfriend and moving forward happily.
Turns out that during our whole relationship my current boyfriend had hundreds of online accounts for dating sites, chat sites, and web cam sites. He had several secret emails and even posted ads on craigslist saying how he was looking for a mile to get physical with. I caught him time and time again, and forgave him. I kept forgiving him, now I've gotten to the point where I'm so angry with myself and with him for doing these things. I feel like an idiot for forgiving, and feel helpless and unhappy.
I constantly change my mind back and forth when it comes to breaking up or not. I can't tell what I want, and am not sure if he's going to cheat again. Has this happened to any other ladies on here? Any advice from a man whose done similar things? Any input would be appreciated, I just want to vent and let this out.
Turns out that during our whole relationship my current boyfriend had hundreds of online accounts for dating sites, chat sites, and web cam sites. He had several secret emails and even posted ads on craigslist saying how he was looking for a mile to get physical with. I caught him time and time again, and forgave him. I kept forgiving him, now I've gotten to the point where I'm so angry with myself and with him for doing these things. I feel like an idiot for forgiving, and feel helpless and unhappy.
I constantly change my mind back and forth when it comes to breaking up or not. I can't tell what I want, and am not sure if he's going to cheat again. Has this happened to any other ladies on here? Any advice from a man whose done similar things? Any input would be appreciated, I just want to vent and let this out.