rian12
Mar 4, 2012, 09:08 PM
OK, so I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and ten months. I cheated on him about seven months ago. I asked him to eat me out and he never did, so that night when I was drunk at a party, and I let someone do that to me... I think that was some of the reason why :( Its not an excuse I'm just saying...
The next day I tried to break up with him but he was about to cry and said he couldn't live without me... So, I never did. I tried to multiple times since then because I keep thinking "the truth will set you free." But, about a month ago I cheated again... I was drunk and I gave him a hj and that was it. I feel so guilty. But he's said before if you ever cheated on me I don't know how I wouldn't punch you? I'd be so angry... He only gets to hang out with me once a week and it makes me lonely.
He's told me before if we ever break up he'd never date me again. That is my biggest problem. I want to break up with him sometimes to be single and crazy but later on in life I want to marry him. Our relationship isn't typical love. It took us a year to say I love you because were not young dumbasses.
Should I keep the secret to myself and live on? Or break up with him and keep the memories? If I tell him my reputation will be ruined and a lot of people will hate me. I'm also going to live in the same building as him next year. WHAT SHOULD I DO?
The next day I tried to break up with him but he was about to cry and said he couldn't live without me... So, I never did. I tried to multiple times since then because I keep thinking "the truth will set you free." But, about a month ago I cheated again... I was drunk and I gave him a hj and that was it. I feel so guilty. But he's said before if you ever cheated on me I don't know how I wouldn't punch you? I'd be so angry... He only gets to hang out with me once a week and it makes me lonely.
He's told me before if we ever break up he'd never date me again. That is my biggest problem. I want to break up with him sometimes to be single and crazy but later on in life I want to marry him. Our relationship isn't typical love. It took us a year to say I love you because were not young dumbasses.
Should I keep the secret to myself and live on? Or break up with him and keep the memories? If I tell him my reputation will be ruined and a lot of people will hate me. I'm also going to live in the same building as him next year. WHAT SHOULD I DO?