Fabir
Feb 25, 2012, 05:25 PM
There's this boy I've liked since freshman year of high school. I had him in a class and not long into the year he started talking to me and getting to know me. I was excited because he was the first really cute guy to talk to me and I could not let this chance go by because I used to be really shy.
After 3 months of talking we started texting and we even went on a date together. And then everything was perfect until, he told me he liked me and I didn't respond. I felt so nervous to tell him I felt the same. I don't know if he was angry I didn't respond or what but the week after our date he started dating one of my "friends" I was heart broken!I was angry at both of them! I got over being angry with him but she wasn't really a friend so I still hate her. She knew I liked him a lot, she even encouraged me to ask him out on more dates, she said she'd encourage him to ask me out because she and him we're really good friends.
I stopped talking to both of them immediately but, I really wanted to talk to him, but I didn't. The next year he tried twice to talk to me and I was super glad and both times he asked for my new number but something inside of me didn't give it to him, I really regret it!
Now in my junior year I see him everywhere and we make eye contact, that's it no words! I see him now more than ever and I wish I had the guts to go tell him everything I still feel but my friends tell me it's a bad idea. I feel lost I want to talk to him even as friends but something tells me not to. Sometimes I feel like he still wants to talk to me by the way he sees me but other times I feel like he hates me.
I've tried forgetting him by drawing my eyes to other guys but, I only see him. I've tried making myself hate him for what he did to me but, I always fail! I don't want to keep feeling this agony! I don't know if I should move on or try to talk to him? I want to tell him what I felt and still feel now. Show I keep trying or move on? HELP!
Feel free to ask for any details! Thanks!
After 3 months of talking we started texting and we even went on a date together. And then everything was perfect until, he told me he liked me and I didn't respond. I felt so nervous to tell him I felt the same. I don't know if he was angry I didn't respond or what but the week after our date he started dating one of my "friends" I was heart broken!I was angry at both of them! I got over being angry with him but she wasn't really a friend so I still hate her. She knew I liked him a lot, she even encouraged me to ask him out on more dates, she said she'd encourage him to ask me out because she and him we're really good friends.
I stopped talking to both of them immediately but, I really wanted to talk to him, but I didn't. The next year he tried twice to talk to me and I was super glad and both times he asked for my new number but something inside of me didn't give it to him, I really regret it!
Now in my junior year I see him everywhere and we make eye contact, that's it no words! I see him now more than ever and I wish I had the guts to go tell him everything I still feel but my friends tell me it's a bad idea. I feel lost I want to talk to him even as friends but something tells me not to. Sometimes I feel like he still wants to talk to me by the way he sees me but other times I feel like he hates me.
I've tried forgetting him by drawing my eyes to other guys but, I only see him. I've tried making myself hate him for what he did to me but, I always fail! I don't want to keep feeling this agony! I don't know if I should move on or try to talk to him? I want to tell him what I felt and still feel now. Show I keep trying or move on? HELP!
Feel free to ask for any details! Thanks!