Beckylory
Feb 15, 2012, 01:23 PM
(Sorry If my english isn't that good. I'm trying to do my best so you can all understand.)
I've always had this weird feeling that a piece of me is missing. Like I'm from Ecuador and me and my sister have moved to belgium to live with my mom and stepdad. I was like 5 years old. Every time I think about that moment, I only remember everything that happened after we arrived in Belgium. I remember when I was 6, I didn't remember anything of my life before we arrived in Belgium. That's maybe not that weird cause it can also be normal but I also didn't remember family. Not only that, I don't even remember my real dad. He died when I was 2 years old. But I have allot of pictures of him and I don't remember ANYTHING ! I don't even see the resemblance with me and him. They say that I look the most like my mom and my sister like my dad. But I don't see what we have commonn. Also every time my mom is talking on the phone with my family in Ecuador, she always says 'the family of Karla' (Karla is my sister) , but she nevers says like my name. When I ask her why she doesn't says my name she says 'You know... Every time I say Karla, I refer to YOU and Karla'. That doesn't make any sense at ALL ! What also is weird that every one calls me Becky, but my REAL name is Vicky. On my ID and stuff it always says Vicky. And I always get questions at school from my friends and teachers why my REAL name isn't Becky. When I was little I didn't know myself so I always asked my mom, but every time I asked she gave me a whole different story. I have been told so much stories that I don't even know with 1 is true. My brother for example is REALLY adopted. He is 10 years older then me and he is actually one of my moms nephews. She adopted him cause his mom a banded him when he was little. My mom told me that when I was 8, but I was shocked myself cause my brother looks allot like me. Also every time I ask my mom and stepdad if I'm adopted they always act strange and try to change subject. Even I'm adopted nothing would change with me and my parents. They raised me like I was there real child. But something would have change, me. I think I would like to find my REAL parents so I find myself. I've always have been in this pursuit where I'm looking of what I want to be and who I am. So I like to know what you al think ?
I've always had this weird feeling that a piece of me is missing. Like I'm from Ecuador and me and my sister have moved to belgium to live with my mom and stepdad. I was like 5 years old. Every time I think about that moment, I only remember everything that happened after we arrived in Belgium. I remember when I was 6, I didn't remember anything of my life before we arrived in Belgium. That's maybe not that weird cause it can also be normal but I also didn't remember family. Not only that, I don't even remember my real dad. He died when I was 2 years old. But I have allot of pictures of him and I don't remember ANYTHING ! I don't even see the resemblance with me and him. They say that I look the most like my mom and my sister like my dad. But I don't see what we have commonn. Also every time my mom is talking on the phone with my family in Ecuador, she always says 'the family of Karla' (Karla is my sister) , but she nevers says like my name. When I ask her why she doesn't says my name she says 'You know... Every time I say Karla, I refer to YOU and Karla'. That doesn't make any sense at ALL ! What also is weird that every one calls me Becky, but my REAL name is Vicky. On my ID and stuff it always says Vicky. And I always get questions at school from my friends and teachers why my REAL name isn't Becky. When I was little I didn't know myself so I always asked my mom, but every time I asked she gave me a whole different story. I have been told so much stories that I don't even know with 1 is true. My brother for example is REALLY adopted. He is 10 years older then me and he is actually one of my moms nephews. She adopted him cause his mom a banded him when he was little. My mom told me that when I was 8, but I was shocked myself cause my brother looks allot like me. Also every time I ask my mom and stepdad if I'm adopted they always act strange and try to change subject. Even I'm adopted nothing would change with me and my parents. They raised me like I was there real child. But something would have change, me. I think I would like to find my REAL parents so I find myself. I've always have been in this pursuit where I'm looking of what I want to be and who I am. So I like to know what you al think ?