SimpleD
Jan 30, 2012, 08:32 PM
Okay so here is the situation, I have been with this guy for a year and a half now and I love him madly. However his sexual libido hasn't been as high as mine. He hardly ever initiates anything, and when we are doing stuff he seems very distracted. I have been asking him if something is wrong, he says that he's tired. Well, recently I was really fed up and I pressed him against the wall and made him tell me the real reason. He was in tears and said that he felt so bad, but he goes "I'm used to being with thinner girls, maybe if you were thinner I would initiate sex more"
My heart sank. But keep in mind people, I have been this weight since I was 17 (I'm 23 now). I was never the skinniest girl in the world, I am 5'6 and weigh 140lbs. I have curves in the right places and I have always LOVED myself.
What I don't understand is, why did he pick me in the first place? If I wasn't his preference, why date me? It's not like I gained 30 pounds while we were dating! I just don't understand... I feel so ashamed now.. all those days where I would parade around in my underwear, I felt like a queen... little did I know he was probably thinking what a disgusting beast I am. :(
I also know that he loves me, and he is overwhelmed with guilt that he feels this way. But why would he want me to change somethig that he chose?
My heart sank. But keep in mind people, I have been this weight since I was 17 (I'm 23 now). I was never the skinniest girl in the world, I am 5'6 and weigh 140lbs. I have curves in the right places and I have always LOVED myself.
What I don't understand is, why did he pick me in the first place? If I wasn't his preference, why date me? It's not like I gained 30 pounds while we were dating! I just don't understand... I feel so ashamed now.. all those days where I would parade around in my underwear, I felt like a queen... little did I know he was probably thinking what a disgusting beast I am. :(
I also know that he loves me, and he is overwhelmed with guilt that he feels this way. But why would he want me to change somethig that he chose?