tshirtbrick
Jan 23, 2012, 10:31 PM
This is going to be long, just warning you. I'm a little weary posting this on a public form considering this is stuff I never tell people, but by some answers I can tell there's some knowledgeable people backing up the answers.I apologize if some information is spread out or in scattered places, I get iffy talking about this.
It all started when I was a young kid, elementary school at least, the spiritual world fascinated me and so did spirits and ghosts, angels and demons and all that good stuff. So, being a natural born dabbler, I went out and bought an ouiji board and some spell books. I brought it to a friends house because his mom was "cool" and let us just learn stuff on our own. We began do ouiji for a little, the first few attempts were a failure. The urge of wanting to communicate with something from the other side fueled my interest (surprisingly at a young age I know) brought it back to my house and tried it but once again was another failure. After a fey days break we decide to try it again, this time it has moved.. not as much as I expected, but it had movement to where we both questioned if it was one of us or something else. Before I continue, the friend of mine's mother always talked about how he would see an old man type ghost or figure in his house in a closet in an upstairs room but often roamed. There was no confirmation from the parents, so as a young kid I just thought it was a lie. A year or so later after ouiji and random spell play,my friend passed away at 12. At this age is when I started seeing/feeling/hearing stuff. I have seen figures in my room(mostly near the door of my bathroom), doors open in my house,numerous doors I've locked somehow unlock and remain open, my dog stares into my bathroom every time she comes in my room, looks around as if she is someone holding a piece of food in their hand and waving it around but always in the same direction my bathroom is in. My bed is diagonal across from my bathroom like / I've seen half a face looking back at me from the inside of the mirror, seen figures in my bathroom, seen shadows go across my floor like it was casted from someone walking in front of a light, endless amount of shadow people, in public and in my house, some objects with eyes like pictures and dolls give me the feeling as if they are looking back at me and they are watching me (although most people assume it, its almost as if I feel the presence) I've have things appear in my room, but they didn't seem humanoid or spiritual but strangely E.T. Looking but it was there and gone within a blink so details are minimum but it was in my complete cone of vision. I was on the phone with a friend of mine explaining some of my discoveries and the second I saw it, it made me cry and was in shock and couldn't speak or make sense for at least 10 minutes. A stairway leads up to my room, I hear foot steps (could be aged wood), figures come up my stairs, I've made what I would say eye contact with one but I was in so much of a shock that I froze in place. It was like a black gassy looking spirit with black eyes, like a dark black on black, voices calling my name (mostly when I'm in a meditative/dreamy state but friends and I have heard voices from nowhere try to get my attention) I have seen a lot of "shadow people" in public, on the ground, hiding around corners peeking out, hiding behind people etc. At first it really startled me but as I got older I got so used to it I was able to brush it off and it would come and go in phases. I know I months likely have opened a door and different entities are stepping through, but none but two have really scared the **** out of me to the point I froze and started to get teary eyed/cry. It felt like my heart or emotions was viciously attacked nothing physical. I have been in my room and have felt pokes, taps, random brush against or rubbing feelings, cold chills ( I have a window AC cause central air doesn't reach my room well so it can't be any air conditioner) tons of lights have flickered but it can't always be a sign it could be electrical. There has been points of my life where for brief moments I felt as if my eyes were isolated but something else was operating my body. For example I'm going about things, but I am only watching through my eyes. I don't think I am possessed or anything, but perhaps maybe clairvoyant or somehow channeled something. I've had some dreams come true, or events in dreams come true as if it was foretold to me, but me being a teenager going through hormone changes I thought I was "weird" or "special" I always see faces, weather they are in textures or sometimes in fog but there I can always find a face where I'm looking. Sometimes I feel as if it is something trying to get my attention but I'm not responding in the right manner or with the right answers, like I said in my recent years being older it wasn't as startling or scary besides a few times but those few times was major. I would love to add more but my brain kind of hurts from putting myself back in the memories to describe as best as I can, I don't really know if I left anything out or if I mentioned everything but a lot of stuff has happened and sometimes would be in the strangest of places. Sometimes I get the whispering in my ear when I'm around people which surprisingly has helped me in some situations
Currently I am 20, my senior year in high school is when I accidentally bumped into a teacher who was knowledgeable upon these topics to a higher degree than most people. I began seeing him after class or during lunch breaks who filled me in on some basic information about angels and demons and how some doors can be opened accidentally which is probably what happened since I was a curious kid at a young age in arts that most people are afraid of or don't learn about until they are older. Sometimes I still get the urge to use ouiji again, honestly I'm afraid to, and I don't want anything negative to feed off that fear and make anything worse.. but sometimes I wonder if being exposed to this at an early age was meant to happen.
I apologize if my grammar, punctuation, and sentence building is completely off but my brain is exhausted after typing all of this. I would love to chat with a knowledgeable person via email with further questions and advice but I see they delete emails so if anyone would like to email me somehow PM me.
It all started when I was a young kid, elementary school at least, the spiritual world fascinated me and so did spirits and ghosts, angels and demons and all that good stuff. So, being a natural born dabbler, I went out and bought an ouiji board and some spell books. I brought it to a friends house because his mom was "cool" and let us just learn stuff on our own. We began do ouiji for a little, the first few attempts were a failure. The urge of wanting to communicate with something from the other side fueled my interest (surprisingly at a young age I know) brought it back to my house and tried it but once again was another failure. After a fey days break we decide to try it again, this time it has moved.. not as much as I expected, but it had movement to where we both questioned if it was one of us or something else. Before I continue, the friend of mine's mother always talked about how he would see an old man type ghost or figure in his house in a closet in an upstairs room but often roamed. There was no confirmation from the parents, so as a young kid I just thought it was a lie. A year or so later after ouiji and random spell play,my friend passed away at 12. At this age is when I started seeing/feeling/hearing stuff. I have seen figures in my room(mostly near the door of my bathroom), doors open in my house,numerous doors I've locked somehow unlock and remain open, my dog stares into my bathroom every time she comes in my room, looks around as if she is someone holding a piece of food in their hand and waving it around but always in the same direction my bathroom is in. My bed is diagonal across from my bathroom like / I've seen half a face looking back at me from the inside of the mirror, seen figures in my bathroom, seen shadows go across my floor like it was casted from someone walking in front of a light, endless amount of shadow people, in public and in my house, some objects with eyes like pictures and dolls give me the feeling as if they are looking back at me and they are watching me (although most people assume it, its almost as if I feel the presence) I've have things appear in my room, but they didn't seem humanoid or spiritual but strangely E.T. Looking but it was there and gone within a blink so details are minimum but it was in my complete cone of vision. I was on the phone with a friend of mine explaining some of my discoveries and the second I saw it, it made me cry and was in shock and couldn't speak or make sense for at least 10 minutes. A stairway leads up to my room, I hear foot steps (could be aged wood), figures come up my stairs, I've made what I would say eye contact with one but I was in so much of a shock that I froze in place. It was like a black gassy looking spirit with black eyes, like a dark black on black, voices calling my name (mostly when I'm in a meditative/dreamy state but friends and I have heard voices from nowhere try to get my attention) I have seen a lot of "shadow people" in public, on the ground, hiding around corners peeking out, hiding behind people etc. At first it really startled me but as I got older I got so used to it I was able to brush it off and it would come and go in phases. I know I months likely have opened a door and different entities are stepping through, but none but two have really scared the **** out of me to the point I froze and started to get teary eyed/cry. It felt like my heart or emotions was viciously attacked nothing physical. I have been in my room and have felt pokes, taps, random brush against or rubbing feelings, cold chills ( I have a window AC cause central air doesn't reach my room well so it can't be any air conditioner) tons of lights have flickered but it can't always be a sign it could be electrical. There has been points of my life where for brief moments I felt as if my eyes were isolated but something else was operating my body. For example I'm going about things, but I am only watching through my eyes. I don't think I am possessed or anything, but perhaps maybe clairvoyant or somehow channeled something. I've had some dreams come true, or events in dreams come true as if it was foretold to me, but me being a teenager going through hormone changes I thought I was "weird" or "special" I always see faces, weather they are in textures or sometimes in fog but there I can always find a face where I'm looking. Sometimes I feel as if it is something trying to get my attention but I'm not responding in the right manner or with the right answers, like I said in my recent years being older it wasn't as startling or scary besides a few times but those few times was major. I would love to add more but my brain kind of hurts from putting myself back in the memories to describe as best as I can, I don't really know if I left anything out or if I mentioned everything but a lot of stuff has happened and sometimes would be in the strangest of places. Sometimes I get the whispering in my ear when I'm around people which surprisingly has helped me in some situations
Currently I am 20, my senior year in high school is when I accidentally bumped into a teacher who was knowledgeable upon these topics to a higher degree than most people. I began seeing him after class or during lunch breaks who filled me in on some basic information about angels and demons and how some doors can be opened accidentally which is probably what happened since I was a curious kid at a young age in arts that most people are afraid of or don't learn about until they are older. Sometimes I still get the urge to use ouiji again, honestly I'm afraid to, and I don't want anything negative to feed off that fear and make anything worse.. but sometimes I wonder if being exposed to this at an early age was meant to happen.
I apologize if my grammar, punctuation, and sentence building is completely off but my brain is exhausted after typing all of this. I would love to chat with a knowledgeable person via email with further questions and advice but I see they delete emails so if anyone would like to email me somehow PM me.