There's a group of girls my friend is friends with. I get jealous at them because there always together I'm always worried about them getting close and leave me out of conversations which they started to do. My friend tries to include me but her friends don't like me (mean to me) and I feel insecure and judge myself when I with her friends. I have a low-self esteem.

As a good friend I told my friend to go to this retreat that was much fun and I got closer with my friends and who didn't like me and help me to open up. I thought it would be good for her and super fun for her to go. So she and her friends are all going together. This was the hardest decision of my life. It's hard to cope with the thought of how much fun they will be having without me. I need comfort fast. I cry too much on this.

I sound mean, that's what's scaring me. I just feel so lonely when she hangs out with them. They have the same interests and a lot of things in common.They are together all the time and I only see my friend for a few hours a school day. I'm a bad friend for being jealous. I know it was good thing to tell her even if it meant they are all going to be together in the retreat but it makes me feel sad that I'm not with them.

So sorry you feel left out, and don't fit in, but I think having your own group of friends, and activities you enjoy without your friend, would help a lot. Then you won't depend on just her to have fun, nor would not need to be accepted into her group.

Your insecurity, and low self esteem is tied to you being dependent on others for fun, and doing your own thing would give you a lot more confidence.

Jealousy is but another form of insecurity. Low self esteem is from slapping yourself and thinking you are not good enough, or need someone to tell you that you are.

Start loving yourself, and do GOOD things for yourself. You can change what you don't like, and keep what you do. Just do your own thing for yourself.