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ceedee18
Jan 7, 2012, 04:25 AM
I used to be friends with these two guys, and my best friend back in 7 grade. We did everything together, and most of the class thought we were coupled up. Everyone thought D and I were together. People tell me I'm pretty despite being a little to the chubby side (but never overweight!) and acne on my face. Some guys asked me out before, but I rejected them, as I felt I was still too young, and when D told me he loved me I was really happy as I was starting to like him but was kind of shy as there was nothing to like about me and I felt it was too soon to use the word love instead of like so I avoided the question and came up with an excuse to go home.

I was close to the other guy in the clique, B as we used to be in the same school and D misunderstood and thought we were secretly dating. I believe I hurt his feelings when I avoided him so one day he texted me and asked me if I liked B and if we were dating. I told him we were not together but he didn't believe me so we sort of had a fight. I was hurt when he indirectly insulted me and told him not to call me anymore, ending our friendship.

Since that day, I avoided him as much as possible and he changed. He became flirty and always acted like he was very cool. Later in 7 grade he had a girlfriend who was, in my opinion, sort of *****y. But I ignored them and carried on with my life.
In my school, students stay in a class for 2 grades before being streamed into different classes in 8 grade. Unfortunately, I was streamed into the same class as him. To make matters worst, our teacher made us seat together. Obviously I tried to avoid him, but seating together doesn't make it very easy.. We only talked when there was pair work to be done and occasionally I see him staring at me. Sometimes I can't help but to smile when he says something funny or when he smiles.

Its like the façade I'm putting up about hating him suddenly disappears. But I know he has a girlfriend and I don't want to misunderstand him staring at me as he was a different guy that used to like. Everyday when I seat next to him I feel my heart beating faster but he once in a while he turns into this other guy who is annoying and obnoxious.

I really don't know what to do. Do I like him? Someone please help me, at least tell me how to make things less awkward seating together..

talaniman
Jan 7, 2012, 01:30 PM
Why do you have to do anything as in time the awkward feelings will fade, or you can talk and bury the hatchet, and go back to friends.

Sometimes people are better friends than partners in a relationship. One day at a time.