BetterThanRev
Dec 30, 2011, 08:20 PM
The reason why I'm asking is because I was talking to my good friend heather and she said she thinks I'm depressed.
Also I have friends who told me " Since you got in a relationship you seem so happy " And I asked what do you mean like I wasn't happy before, and all of my friends said the same thing " Well, its just you always seem so upset "
Teachers have asked me SO MANY TIMES " Is everything okay? " and I'm like Yeah I'm fine, and they just say okay.
Anyway,
I will admit I have some problems...
1. I cry at least 2 times every week before bed
2. I cut myself open A couple times on my upper arms
3. I am trying to stop eating and lose weight
4. I KNOW I'm unhappy inside. I can feel it.
I cry because I feel alone and ugly and like nobody likes me, I feel like I have no one to talk to, because I tend to push them all away. I cut myself because I feel worthless and the pain just evens out from emotional and physical. It's sort of self obvious as to why I'm trying to lose weight. I feel FAT. I'm 12 and I weigh 100pounds and I am 5'1. Also I have the biggest thighs in the world.
BUT, then there are general times when I'm totally fine. But something is always on my mind, I always have a problem, and in school sometimes I just stop working because I get too stressed out or confused and just give up. I lose interest in things easily and just like being alone in my room for hours in the dark.
Even right now as I'm writing this at 10:18PM. I've been in my room since 1pm just in the dark with my door locked. I could sit in black and just be in deep thought for hours, but if I think too much I could cry.
So, Do you think I'm Depressed? And if I am, what should I do?
Also I have friends who told me " Since you got in a relationship you seem so happy " And I asked what do you mean like I wasn't happy before, and all of my friends said the same thing " Well, its just you always seem so upset "
Teachers have asked me SO MANY TIMES " Is everything okay? " and I'm like Yeah I'm fine, and they just say okay.
Anyway,
I will admit I have some problems...
1. I cry at least 2 times every week before bed
2. I cut myself open A couple times on my upper arms
3. I am trying to stop eating and lose weight
4. I KNOW I'm unhappy inside. I can feel it.
I cry because I feel alone and ugly and like nobody likes me, I feel like I have no one to talk to, because I tend to push them all away. I cut myself because I feel worthless and the pain just evens out from emotional and physical. It's sort of self obvious as to why I'm trying to lose weight. I feel FAT. I'm 12 and I weigh 100pounds and I am 5'1. Also I have the biggest thighs in the world.
BUT, then there are general times when I'm totally fine. But something is always on my mind, I always have a problem, and in school sometimes I just stop working because I get too stressed out or confused and just give up. I lose interest in things easily and just like being alone in my room for hours in the dark.
Even right now as I'm writing this at 10:18PM. I've been in my room since 1pm just in the dark with my door locked. I could sit in black and just be in deep thought for hours, but if I think too much I could cry.
So, Do you think I'm Depressed? And if I am, what should I do?