I started seeing a guy(john) 4 months ago... 2 months in the relationship i went on vacation. Before i had left, i knew he was intome, i just wasnt sure how much, because he neever talked about it, and never seemed like he cared much.. i thought he was out seeing other girls, considering 2 months passed and he had never made any sexual moves whatso ever, only a kiss. I left for my 2 week vacation.. ihad called him a couple of times while iw as there, and he never really had too much time to talk.. so i figured our relationship was coming to an end. Previously to getting involved with him i had gotten out of a very seriosu relationship and i had been honest with him from the beginng that i still had feelings for this other kid. So while on vacation it just so happened the ex boyfriend was there too! so we started talkign again, sparks flew, and we decided wed give it another chance.. when i came back home john didnt call me, contact me nothing... so i went on and did my thing.. and it just didnt feel right, he had messaged me over the internet one day and we started talking here and there. Fianlly i realized something wasnt right in my other relationship so things ended with that quickly and i hung out with john again. It was so right & felt so comftorble to be back togehterh with him, i was lieka girl falling in love for her first time. Then we got into an argument one night because i had asked what the deal was between us, if we were dating, if we werent, i guess it was a touchy subject to him because we had just gotten back togeher. So he didnt talk to me at all he wouldnt answer my phone calls, text messages, nothing
so i figured id send him an email.. in the email i spilt my heart out, told him exactly how i felt... he didnt kno i had gotten back with my ex on our little break and he said some very hurtful things to me and told me i had lost him...
i kno its selfish to want him back but hoenslty i love him, i truely truely love him. and im so scared i will never see him again. everyone is telling me to just give it time, but it is killing me i love him and i want him back.... WHAT AM I supposed TO DO?!?!:confused: :confused: :confused: I can't even get out of bed, I've been sitting crying for the last two days. Even if I can't get him back all I want is to see him one more time to appoligize from the heart.

You sure fell hard for someone in a 4month relationship who did her thang in between time. Accept that things have not worked out and instead of crying move on with your life. Sometime we dump some one and sometimes we get dumped that's life, so leave him alone and move on. If he calls that's up to him not you.

I haven't had that much experience in relationships to give life altering advice but just by reading the title of your post I can say that you don't NEED him back, you DESIRE him and WANT him back. Try to distinguish the difference between wanting and needing. You CAN be happy without him and somewhere down the line you will be happy with or without him. In the meantime, it's all about distracting yourself and surrounding yourself with friends and family. You'll find that it gets a little easier with every day that passes. Good luck.