Rize
Nov 22, 2011, 09:18 AM
This guy and I have been together for 16 months. I've been hurt in the past by my ex and a bit jaded I kept picking fights in this relationship. I kept saying things without thinking and spoke before I thought. But I loved this guys dearly. I was scared and afraid but I still did a lot for this relationship too and he saw I was different and truly loved me. But let me just say I know everyone says this but this guy gave so much for this relationship did everything he was like family. My conservative parents approved too.
We were perfect for each other he absolutely treated me like a princess did everything. I said I'd watch out on the things I say and a few days ago I took it too far for a stupid reason. I tried taking it back but he's too hurt apparently it's for a lot of things not just that day and he says he has a lot going on in his life and he lost interest now. It's hard for me to digest because he said he didn't feel like that just a few days ago but it doesn't directly have to do with that one fight either.
Everyone I know is stunned because this guy was madly in love with me. I feel horrible like I screwed it up but he knows I'm like a kid and innocent and childish and I mean well. He knows me. I do those things because I really believed he was mine and I was just close to him. I regret it now but even then we were so great for each other. He'd always try whenever I felt this way and he did so much for me and all. It's hard hearing those words from me and no matter how much I tell him I won't he doesn't believe me and it wasn't even like I'm too horrible and I never did terrible things just little annoying things but he loved me no matter what. Gave me reasons to love him when I thought I didn't. He made me believe in him and now he let me down :/ .
I'm stunned that he would be the one to do this... like I feel so bad but he says he doesn't have interest. Like this guy was so in love with me he really cared. More than like anyone like he was my mother brother sister friend love everything family and all!
Do you think it's really over? What's going on? He wants to be friends and he came over one days when guests were over I texted him after why and he said just to say hi like two days after we broke up. When I finally get the courage to ask him I'm sorry and for us to start over he doesn't want too. He cares but I don't know why he doesn't want to... like he says he truly forgives me.
I don't know do you think it's really over? Because I cannot explain to you how much he loved me. What do I do? I'm so scared of him and stunned cause he was my everything. After I sincerely heartfelt asked him like I haven't ever he stopped texting me and says he gets it but doesn't text me and hasn't for like a day now... like what the heck is going on?
What should I do? I tried but I can't just be bestfriends in a second till he decides to move on and when he does then what are we? I have feelings and needs too... is it really over?
Also, Everyone was absolutely jealous of our relationship too like he did so much and was so romantic and just so sweet and was always there for me in a blink of an eye. I was always scared but deep down I did fall for him I was so lucky to have I cannot bear losing him. He was the best gift I've ever gotten I looked up to him and I was whole because of him he was my other half. It was always me and him I bet his friends are like don't be a tool for her or don't let her walk all over you and I don't know he was my most prized possession my greatest treasure my eveything and now none of it matter :( I bet some of my friends are secretly happy for me cause honestly and completely unbiasedly their boyfriends aren't that great like they love now and what not but wished they did stuff like mine did. By the way, I'm 19 he's 21
Whatever I did I'd always regret losing him I have hope but am I being stupid?
We were perfect for each other he absolutely treated me like a princess did everything. I said I'd watch out on the things I say and a few days ago I took it too far for a stupid reason. I tried taking it back but he's too hurt apparently it's for a lot of things not just that day and he says he has a lot going on in his life and he lost interest now. It's hard for me to digest because he said he didn't feel like that just a few days ago but it doesn't directly have to do with that one fight either.
Everyone I know is stunned because this guy was madly in love with me. I feel horrible like I screwed it up but he knows I'm like a kid and innocent and childish and I mean well. He knows me. I do those things because I really believed he was mine and I was just close to him. I regret it now but even then we were so great for each other. He'd always try whenever I felt this way and he did so much for me and all. It's hard hearing those words from me and no matter how much I tell him I won't he doesn't believe me and it wasn't even like I'm too horrible and I never did terrible things just little annoying things but he loved me no matter what. Gave me reasons to love him when I thought I didn't. He made me believe in him and now he let me down :/ .
I'm stunned that he would be the one to do this... like I feel so bad but he says he doesn't have interest. Like this guy was so in love with me he really cared. More than like anyone like he was my mother brother sister friend love everything family and all!
Do you think it's really over? What's going on? He wants to be friends and he came over one days when guests were over I texted him after why and he said just to say hi like two days after we broke up. When I finally get the courage to ask him I'm sorry and for us to start over he doesn't want too. He cares but I don't know why he doesn't want to... like he says he truly forgives me.
I don't know do you think it's really over? Because I cannot explain to you how much he loved me. What do I do? I'm so scared of him and stunned cause he was my everything. After I sincerely heartfelt asked him like I haven't ever he stopped texting me and says he gets it but doesn't text me and hasn't for like a day now... like what the heck is going on?
What should I do? I tried but I can't just be bestfriends in a second till he decides to move on and when he does then what are we? I have feelings and needs too... is it really over?
Also, Everyone was absolutely jealous of our relationship too like he did so much and was so romantic and just so sweet and was always there for me in a blink of an eye. I was always scared but deep down I did fall for him I was so lucky to have I cannot bear losing him. He was the best gift I've ever gotten I looked up to him and I was whole because of him he was my other half. It was always me and him I bet his friends are like don't be a tool for her or don't let her walk all over you and I don't know he was my most prized possession my greatest treasure my eveything and now none of it matter :( I bet some of my friends are secretly happy for me cause honestly and completely unbiasedly their boyfriends aren't that great like they love now and what not but wished they did stuff like mine did. By the way, I'm 19 he's 21
Whatever I did I'd always regret losing him I have hope but am I being stupid?