So I'm 15, an openly bi guy, and a sophomore in high school.
And the thing that has pissed me off the most is the fact that my friend doesn't even know how much I love him, yet we've been friends for one year. But I want us to be more than friends. And I can't even tell him!

Here's why:

I want to be straightforward with it (About me liking him) (I came out to him as bi this past May and he's accepting of me :)) but I don't even have 5 SECONDS to tell him...
My friend Tabitha sees him before 4th period every day. (Me and her have 3rd period gym, and Andrew has 4th, so as we leave he walks in.)
And they never knew each other before I told her I like him, so he's always wondering why she knows his name.
Her reply--every day--is "My friend's [me] in love with you!", except this time he'd say "Um... OK" and I think today he even asked her "Who?"

I even told her about my problems with telling him I like him in history class; or even having a simple conversation with Andrew..
It would take a miracle to kill Andrew's ******* friend Paul. (I hate him, as you know....)
They talk to each other every day during history 2nd period, before gym...
Andrew will always sit behind me, and every day it's like I want to run up to him--really what I want to do is kiss him but we're not there yet--and tell him but I can't.
For 3 reasons:
1) Our teacher Mr. Keyes is always yelling at someone every day, and mostly it's either Andrew--for sitting near me--and Paul--for being a ****ing *******. I hate the way Keyes yells at Andrew for no reason. He always tells him to sit back in his seat, even if A's not causing problems at all...
2) Because Paul and my ex friend Julia and my friends Victoria and Onesty (literally her name is Honesty without the H..) are right next to me or near me. Victoria and Onesty are on my right in that order. Julia sits on my left.. and Paul sits behind Julia.
Because me, V and O sit in the front row.
3) I forget what I would've written for 3... I'm listening to "Destiny" by Zero 7... it makes me think of how much I want to be with Andrew again!
I want to sing it to him so badly...

Anyway I told Tabitha all this today. She said "I'll literally go in your history class and tell everyone to get the **** out so you and Andrew can make babies!"
I busted out laughing but really that would make my day, my week, and my year, me and Andrew alone together...
I have too much I need to get off my chest to him, so he'd understand how I'm feeling. About him, about me having a crush on him.. about everything in my life.

Yesterday I was talking to Andrew on Facebook, since it's--so far--the only way I can talk to him without obstacles.
I told him I wanted to talk to him today--well it was yesterday so I told him tomorrow--and he said he never gets to school on time..
So I replied "Oh... what time do you get to school?" and he never replied and soon after he went offline.

A few friends have said that "You [I] need to learn how to control your emotions enough to gear them away from straight men."
I always respond, because it's true: "Of course I need to learn how to do it, but I'm a lost cause... I hate going for straight guys but there's no one else gay or bi my age where I live, so straight guys are all I have. And I hate when people tell me "wait until your older" to find someone, but it's what I'll have to do."

I like him so much that I even wrote a 25 line poem about him... here it goes:

Love is in the slightest of things
When you're the age when caged birds sing
In all things: a Soft tune;
Meant to dazzle us with croon
Left and right we'll all fall
Hearing the graceful song

Be aware for the birds, once more;
They'll remind you of memories from before
They embody the perfect being, elegance
Modeled expectations of the living person
To never cripple nor worsen

Andrew
My affection for you ever so sweet
That when you talk I never miss a beat, what close friends, lovers do
Trying to sit and accomplish that feat
It's my way of showing you I can be loyal, I can be true

Because of him on the bird I rely
As I hope he feels about me how I do him
If he does not, forever I will sigh
And the English Channel I'll try to swim
For he is the first to understand me, the last to lie

To me, your beauty is forever eternal
I will always hold you near me in times of need
You're to me so precious, like a mother needing an Epidural
You're my religion, in that you're my allegiance, my creed

Also I know the Epidural part might sound weird, but it just means that I pretended I was the mother--even though I'm a guy--about to have a baby, and the one thing I'd grab since I feel it's vital and precious to me is the Epidural.. Andrew's the Epidural... which is what I was trying to convey in a positive way.

Thoughts?

Don, if Andrew is straight then no matter how much you care for him, he isn't going to have the same feelings for you. If he were to try, it would probably end up with you getting even more hurt than letting go now would.

You are giving yourself false hope because he accepts you as a friend. If he were interested in you as more than a friend then he has the ability to let you know. He hasn't, has he?

You say you are bi, but you don't seem to be giving any thought to females you know or meet. It seems you are focusing on males and wanting what you know you can't have. Could there be any females who might be trying to catch your eye?

Try stepping back from what you think you feel for Andrew. See who is available who might be trying to get your attention. Someone who isn't a straight male.

Cat, I've tried seeking attention from girls--keyword, girls--in the past but they never gave me the time of the day to acknowledge them and vice versa.
So because women never came to me, I decided to try looking for guys, being different.
And about Andrew this happened:

I don't like my friend Tabitha for telling my crush Andrew I like him..
Well I think she should've asked my permission before she TOLD Andrew I have a crush on him [which never happens in life but still] and ruined it for us. I was going to wait it out and see for myself if he likes me or not..
BUT I admit I told her a little too much; 7 words: "Tabitha [my friend] I have a crush on Andrew."
I'm gonna talk to him on Monday about it. I don't want our friendship to end, if we can't be lovers.
I was at the Mall from 5:30 to 7:15pm.
As I was leaving the Mall I saw Andrew walking IN.
He gave me the "what's good" head nod, and I to him.
And we parted ways; however he saw my friend, and this was their convo:

My friend: andrew knows u like him
he asked me at the mall

Me: really? what did he say? and I saw him

My friend: he saw me and i said hi like usually then he was like" who is obsessed with me? Is it donald simmons?"
i was like "I Don't KNOW ALL IK IS THT MY FRIEND LOVES U! "
he was like is it a guy
i said yes
and he goes to his friend "ITS DONALD!
Lol

So before this happened today, about a month before today she told me not to tell anyone that she liked her now ex bf--when she had a crush on him--and I didn't.
But she ran off and told Andrew that I have a crush on him... after her boyfriend broke up with her, and I felt SORRY for her.
Pfft.. I hate her... I'm not telling her anymore of my secrets.

Opinion?

Hi don, I think one thing you need to remember, whether bi, or straight, that the object of your crushes, affections, or feelings may not feel the same way and act accordingly.

Accepting there feelings are different, and not as strong as yours, may help you to back up, and let go, and move beyond your disappointments, which we all go through, and not put a lot of effort, or hope into fantasy we wish was real.