gothica12
Nov 2, 2011, 12:35 PM
Ok so, I think I'm bi. Before, like in high school I was only into men, (including male celebrities) but yeah, there were girls I though were pretty (including celebs but not in a bi or lez way). But I did sometimes imagine myself kissing certain girls. It just happened, was a fleeting thought.
In grade 10, I briefly liked this guy and he liked me and we kissed. We tried making out in the stairwell (I wasn't opposed to making out nor I am now, but I didn't know what to do), so I turned away and we just kissed normally. He was my first kiss. We sort of dated briefly, but we went back to being friends. He turned out to be a major douche and creep.
I then had another boyfriend in grade 11 and 12, and we really liked each other, but we ended up breaking up and now we don't see, hang, or talk to each other. In grade 12, I find myself smitten with Robert Pattinson and now like celebs like Jamie Campbell Bower. I was single throughout most of grade 12, but I had some goods friends and classmates, and was smitten with Edward.
Anyway, the year after I took a year off and for some reason wondered what it would be like to kiss a girl. (I was bi-curious.) I had my first girl kiss in December 09 -- I was 18, and it was near Christmas. Now I'm 19, going to be 20 in a little over a month.
It may have been the alcohol that I had one sip of, but I asked her if we could try kissing -- just to see what it was like, and she kissed me. Her boyfriend at the time was fine with it. It was nice, I liked it, but I didn't think much of it. Then I watched Jennifer's Body with Megan Fox and found myself confused. I was attracted to her and women besides men (including celebs). That changed, so nothing eventful. (a lot of my friends are bi).
I made more friends and got close including to this other girl. I had met her once before, but we hung out again in October 09. As the year progressed, we started hanging more in Jan with our group, but more in February, and we really hit it off. We talked a lot and got to know each other and quickly became best friends. (She is now one of my best friends, and I'm hers.) We started jokingly flirting with each other, held hands which I enjoyed (but a lot of friends did that). Then one time, we kissed and cuddled, but it was for a photo. We joked about marrying each other, which we still do.
Then in June 2010, I found myself attracted to her (like emotionally, physically, sexually, and perhaps kind of romantically). In July, we were flirting and then I remembered asking her on the phone (like it was a dare) about acting all girl-friendly with each other or actually sort of being each other's girlfriend-friend, and she agreed happily. I remember we kissed each other for real (but it wasn't a serious thing), and we made out and flirted and acted all couple-y, and we both liked it and we loved each other (not like in love with each other, but we were attracted).
We went back to being friends, though we didn't really break up. Our relationship didn't change much, but we continued to flirt and kiss each other (which I enjoyed and I found myself attracted to both sexes including celebs -- I remember think randomly I'd make out with Emma Stone).
We still flirt, we're super close and love each other like sisters, but we kind of like each more than friends. We trust each other a lot and she's told me things she hasn't told others and I the same. She's helped me through some things. (When we dance at clubs, we'll dance the same way we would with a guy.)
In 2011, I ended up dating a guy sort of and we loved each other and it was this way for 8 months, although this girl and I still flirted and kissed each other, but acted like normal best-friends-forever too. There has been some kinky stuff done. She bit me one time and I liked it. Chances are I would kind of marry her since we have a complex relationship. She's super sexy, gorgeous, fun, and protective. I'd die for her and if something happened to her, I'd lose my mind.
Don't get us wrong -- we're not clingy. We like to hang with other people, and if one of us doesn't see each other one night, it would suck, but it wouldn't be a big deal (the same with our other friends). I've admitted a couple times that I'm attracted to her and she to me, but we're just bet-friends-forever with a kind of weird and complex relationship.
I just want to know if I'm bi, because I have this attraction to both guys and girls (including celebs) and would make out and do stuff and have sex with either once I'm married. Sometimes I like girls better than guys (though there are exceptions like male celebs).
Anyway, what do you guys think?
In grade 10, I briefly liked this guy and he liked me and we kissed. We tried making out in the stairwell (I wasn't opposed to making out nor I am now, but I didn't know what to do), so I turned away and we just kissed normally. He was my first kiss. We sort of dated briefly, but we went back to being friends. He turned out to be a major douche and creep.
I then had another boyfriend in grade 11 and 12, and we really liked each other, but we ended up breaking up and now we don't see, hang, or talk to each other. In grade 12, I find myself smitten with Robert Pattinson and now like celebs like Jamie Campbell Bower. I was single throughout most of grade 12, but I had some goods friends and classmates, and was smitten with Edward.
Anyway, the year after I took a year off and for some reason wondered what it would be like to kiss a girl. (I was bi-curious.) I had my first girl kiss in December 09 -- I was 18, and it was near Christmas. Now I'm 19, going to be 20 in a little over a month.
It may have been the alcohol that I had one sip of, but I asked her if we could try kissing -- just to see what it was like, and she kissed me. Her boyfriend at the time was fine with it. It was nice, I liked it, but I didn't think much of it. Then I watched Jennifer's Body with Megan Fox and found myself confused. I was attracted to her and women besides men (including celebs). That changed, so nothing eventful. (a lot of my friends are bi).
I made more friends and got close including to this other girl. I had met her once before, but we hung out again in October 09. As the year progressed, we started hanging more in Jan with our group, but more in February, and we really hit it off. We talked a lot and got to know each other and quickly became best friends. (She is now one of my best friends, and I'm hers.) We started jokingly flirting with each other, held hands which I enjoyed (but a lot of friends did that). Then one time, we kissed and cuddled, but it was for a photo. We joked about marrying each other, which we still do.
Then in June 2010, I found myself attracted to her (like emotionally, physically, sexually, and perhaps kind of romantically). In July, we were flirting and then I remembered asking her on the phone (like it was a dare) about acting all girl-friendly with each other or actually sort of being each other's girlfriend-friend, and she agreed happily. I remember we kissed each other for real (but it wasn't a serious thing), and we made out and flirted and acted all couple-y, and we both liked it and we loved each other (not like in love with each other, but we were attracted).
We went back to being friends, though we didn't really break up. Our relationship didn't change much, but we continued to flirt and kiss each other (which I enjoyed and I found myself attracted to both sexes including celebs -- I remember think randomly I'd make out with Emma Stone).
We still flirt, we're super close and love each other like sisters, but we kind of like each more than friends. We trust each other a lot and she's told me things she hasn't told others and I the same. She's helped me through some things. (When we dance at clubs, we'll dance the same way we would with a guy.)
In 2011, I ended up dating a guy sort of and we loved each other and it was this way for 8 months, although this girl and I still flirted and kissed each other, but acted like normal best-friends-forever too. There has been some kinky stuff done. She bit me one time and I liked it. Chances are I would kind of marry her since we have a complex relationship. She's super sexy, gorgeous, fun, and protective. I'd die for her and if something happened to her, I'd lose my mind.
Don't get us wrong -- we're not clingy. We like to hang with other people, and if one of us doesn't see each other one night, it would suck, but it wouldn't be a big deal (the same with our other friends). I've admitted a couple times that I'm attracted to her and she to me, but we're just bet-friends-forever with a kind of weird and complex relationship.
I just want to know if I'm bi, because I have this attraction to both guys and girls (including celebs) and would make out and do stuff and have sex with either once I'm married. Sometimes I like girls better than guys (though there are exceptions like male celebs).
Anyway, what do you guys think?