So my mom is dead.. And I was close to her.. She died like almost 4 yrs ago..
In my dream I was walking through a place that looked weird and I was suddenly at this boat dock where this guy was about to get into a canoe.. He got in the canoe then I looked down and I was on this rock in the middle of a storm in a large body of water and he was there, In his canoe. And he asked me if I knew why my mom died and I said she over dosed and he was like she did that because of you. She did it on purpose and in my dream I just started crying then I woke up and for the 1st time in my life I cried from my dream..
What does this mean?

Hi Kora, you definitely carry a lot of guilt about your mom, I do too, and it is not uncommon that we feel we did not do enough to help, but you can't carry this on your shoulders and you have to let it go. It was only a dream because you are feeling guilty, and I think you will find soon, that your mom will visit you in a dream and hug you and you feel right again. That is what happened to me, although, I had taken care of my mom for years on my own before she passed at 95, I never felt I did enough.

Peace, please be with you

Tick

I don't know why your mum died but maybe you are still feeling like you did as a child, out of control, couldn't stop the events that led to losing her. Cos you know it wasn't your fault now as an adult, but feelings and beliefs stay inside of us unless we take them out and challenge them as adults.

P.s. I have experienced crying dreams and I know they really stay with you and make you feel raw.

Your mind is subliminally trying to make you feel guilty for what happened.

My mom died last December and for the first couple weeks afterward it happened, I kept having dreams that she died but came back to life and it was all because of me. Because I was too mean to her. But that wasn't the case at all. It was just me being a teenage girl who was always cranky and my mind forced me to believe it was my fault. So trust me, it's not your fault at all.