lostandtrying
Oct 15, 2011, 02:06 AM
Hi, around 6 weeks ago me my ex girlfriend splitup after 2 years, its breaking my heart, only problem is she knows it.
I met her under funny situations, she was border line depressive, no job, car and going from bloke to bloke, all I wanted was to rescue her.
Our relationship was up and down and stupidly after a few weeks of seeing her I kissed another girl, someone she knows, I felt guilty so I told her, we split up for a few days then she forgave me,she has always had depression and she was sinking into it as we got together, and finally ended up on medication for it, we battled through it and got her off the medication, we worked hard, got her a job, a car and her general life seemed happier.
We argued a hell of a lot and fell out regularly but we seemed to settle things down a bit and there was so much love in our relationship, maybe a lack of trust but lots of love.
One day we were both on our way out to work and as we were getiing into sperate cars, I said I loved her, she was half way in her car and didn't respond, so I drove off to the shop, when I came out the shop her car was parked behind me and she was sitting in it, I walked over and said what's up? She replied just thought id follow to say I love you too, so I thought that was a lovely gesture, yet 5 hours later I had a text message from her saying she wanted to spend time apart, so reluctantly I agreed, yet a few days past and she tells me she doesn't love me anymore, this absolutely broke my heart, she's said that we would never be together again.
I made the mistakes of telling her I love her, begging for her, buying flowers and generally running about when she asks. Big mistakes I know.
She says she doesn't care yet she thought I was back with an ex and spent a good few hours texting me abuse saying how could I etc, when I clearly hadn't done anything, yet her reaction was so strong, after wards she text me saying she didn't care if id moved on but she couldn't believe id ran back to my ex, who she hates, I haven't done anything though.
She turned around to me and said she liked someone else about 2 weeks ago and told me it was a guy she worked with but had previously lied about in our relationship, only for two hours later to say she was lying to hurt me.
In all honesty I probably have came across still a bit too strong because I do still text her a lot.
She still texts me randomly about little things like a stone hit her car and took a chunk out of it.
A few of my friends have seen her about recently and they have told me, and as soon as I mention things to her she says I'm following her and spying on her, I'm not, well not intentionally.
I always reply when she texts me but when I text her I only get a reply when she wants too.
My friend seen her in a shop and told me so I friendly just text asking if she had bought anything nice, and I got a really awful reply saying how I'm twisted for spying on her etc, I'm far from twisted, I stood by her through depression and several suicide attempts. In her reply she said: I'm going to go get laid, might as well. This destroyed me inside, once again she knew it. I've tried everything to get her to see I love her and we will be happy together but she won't and says never again. I've asked her out right if she's got another bloke or boyfirend, she says she hasn't and still doesn't look at blokes like that.
She came to mine with her 6 year old daughter who I adore, to see our pet dog, her daughter ran staright over and cuddled me, this made my ex cry, so I asked her if she still loved me, she looked at me said no, closed her eyes and looked away, am I reading too much into this?
She is my dream girl and I really don't want to let her go but at the minute its really feeling like she's never coming back.
Any advice would be more than welcome, thanks for reading.
I met her under funny situations, she was border line depressive, no job, car and going from bloke to bloke, all I wanted was to rescue her.
Our relationship was up and down and stupidly after a few weeks of seeing her I kissed another girl, someone she knows, I felt guilty so I told her, we split up for a few days then she forgave me,she has always had depression and she was sinking into it as we got together, and finally ended up on medication for it, we battled through it and got her off the medication, we worked hard, got her a job, a car and her general life seemed happier.
We argued a hell of a lot and fell out regularly but we seemed to settle things down a bit and there was so much love in our relationship, maybe a lack of trust but lots of love.
One day we were both on our way out to work and as we were getiing into sperate cars, I said I loved her, she was half way in her car and didn't respond, so I drove off to the shop, when I came out the shop her car was parked behind me and she was sitting in it, I walked over and said what's up? She replied just thought id follow to say I love you too, so I thought that was a lovely gesture, yet 5 hours later I had a text message from her saying she wanted to spend time apart, so reluctantly I agreed, yet a few days past and she tells me she doesn't love me anymore, this absolutely broke my heart, she's said that we would never be together again.
I made the mistakes of telling her I love her, begging for her, buying flowers and generally running about when she asks. Big mistakes I know.
She says she doesn't care yet she thought I was back with an ex and spent a good few hours texting me abuse saying how could I etc, when I clearly hadn't done anything, yet her reaction was so strong, after wards she text me saying she didn't care if id moved on but she couldn't believe id ran back to my ex, who she hates, I haven't done anything though.
She turned around to me and said she liked someone else about 2 weeks ago and told me it was a guy she worked with but had previously lied about in our relationship, only for two hours later to say she was lying to hurt me.
In all honesty I probably have came across still a bit too strong because I do still text her a lot.
She still texts me randomly about little things like a stone hit her car and took a chunk out of it.
A few of my friends have seen her about recently and they have told me, and as soon as I mention things to her she says I'm following her and spying on her, I'm not, well not intentionally.
I always reply when she texts me but when I text her I only get a reply when she wants too.
My friend seen her in a shop and told me so I friendly just text asking if she had bought anything nice, and I got a really awful reply saying how I'm twisted for spying on her etc, I'm far from twisted, I stood by her through depression and several suicide attempts. In her reply she said: I'm going to go get laid, might as well. This destroyed me inside, once again she knew it. I've tried everything to get her to see I love her and we will be happy together but she won't and says never again. I've asked her out right if she's got another bloke or boyfirend, she says she hasn't and still doesn't look at blokes like that.
She came to mine with her 6 year old daughter who I adore, to see our pet dog, her daughter ran staright over and cuddled me, this made my ex cry, so I asked her if she still loved me, she looked at me said no, closed her eyes and looked away, am I reading too much into this?
She is my dream girl and I really don't want to let her go but at the minute its really feeling like she's never coming back.
Any advice would be more than welcome, thanks for reading.