I have been friends with a woman for several years. We both date men. Over the years, our feelings for each other became more romantic than platonic. When we spent time together or talked on the phone, it felt like dates. We did not discuss being together as a couple, but the sexual tension was there. She disappeared for a few months. Then reappeared and when I asked her what was going on, she said she has a girlfriend and they live together. I was devastated and I did not react well. She says she loves me and wants to talk. She says she did not know she wanted to be in a same-sex relationship. She says it just happened. I do not want to talk to her. I am too hurt. I feel rejected and embarrassed. Not sure what to do.