auditt03
Sep 30, 2011, 10:03 PM
I moved to phoenix Arizona from cleveland Ohio in may. I met my ex through a friend and we were dating by June. I took him with me to visit my hometown in August, and after that everything changed. When we got back he was very self conscious and felt like he was not good enough for me in every aspect possible. Felt like he didn't have enough money, that he was a screw up, that he wasn't good enough at sex, etc. He would start arguments and accuse me of things that wernt true, like cheating on him, he always thought there was someone else out there better for me than he was. He starting changing his own life to try and be a better person for me, got a job stopped doing drugs got a new car, even deleted Facebook because he needed to worry about things that matter. He even broke up with me because he needed to worry about himself, shortly after that he came back to me and we were dating again. I tried so hard to show him how important he was to me, and that he was good enough, but nothing worked. Things just got worse from this point on out, we ended up breaking up, and now he is telling me that I am the one that made him feel worthless and that I was telling him he wasn't good enough. Not true! He was telling himself this so much that he actually believed it. Now he has blocked my phone number and refuses to speak to me again, says he wants nothing to do with me and to leave him alone and is being very mean. I am heartbroken, I have never dated someone that was so protective over me. Every guy I have ever dated before this has cheated on me and he is not that type of person, he was the opposite. I don't understand what I did to have this happen, and I just want him back and for things to be the way that they were. I truly loved him and I felt we were perfect for each other, we were just trying to find a way for him to not be so self conscious. I feel like now he thinks he is too good for me and wants nothing to do with me, but if it wasn't for me he would still be selling drugs and not have a job or a nice new car. He thinks that I am a mean and terriable person for making him feel bad, but I didn't do anything wrong! He used to tell me no one has ever treated him this good and I was the only girl he has ever loved. I have been trying to give him space, and the longest we went without talking was a week, and when we did talk he didn't let me say one word yelled at me and hung up and blocked my phone number. Is he ever going to realize I didn't do this to him? Will he ever come back and change his mind? It breaks my heart because he was such a good boyfriend, never even let me open my own car door or wash a single dish! His birthday is in a month, and I had already bought him a new car part to give him. What can I do to get through to him that he was good enough for me?