I had break up with somebody I love the most on this earth, but he has some issues regarding I need my personal space and all. I always tried but he found something somewhere wrong. Finally he broke up with me, I decided to commit suicide. Then he was really scared but never wants to be in relationship with me. Then said we'll be friends, but I'm not comfortable with this. Things were going even worst, then one day I hacked his Facebook account, and I found his messages of flirting with other gals, and talking **** about me like she is very bad, never cared for my feeling, and a disaster in my life.

I lost my temper decided to tell him what he deserve. I gave him very golden words like, *******, but after 2 days I started missing him again. I called up and he said what you want. I said I want my relationship back with you, but he said this is not possible, I can give you my friendship after one month, but always he does the same month after month. I have lost my 3 months in order to have him.

I decide I don't want to live without him, because I can't take this pain anymore.. because in three months I lost my 5 kg, no food nothing, for him, only for him to say he doesn't care.. go to hell. Then I took some pills, without any fear of death but suddenly blood come from my mouth and I was really scared at that time.

I called up him but he became even worse, he showed no care for me. Instead of saving me, he said I don't care. Then my mom came from duty, she knows every thng about us, and she called up him and gave him very bad words, and decided to call his mom, but he begged her not to. So please help me... I want him back.


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I cannot make someone change their feelings for you and want to be with you, and neither can you, no matter how badly you want them to, or no matter how dramatic you get.

I highly suggest you leave the guy alone and stop wanting someone that not only doesn't want you, and cheats on you, and frankly doesn't care if you kill yourself. That's crazy wanting a piece of trash like that.

Now calm down and think for a second, if you want a king who knows how to treat a queen, you must act like one and not be bothered by this trashy individual.

See this as God giving you a chance to do better, and thank him for getting the trash out of your life. Do this immediately, and count your blessings.

Oh dear. Ugh!

Honestly you relationship is the least of. Your worry. The fact that you would KILL yourself! Just because one person out of 6 billion does not want to be with you is just sick and pathetic.
You know a good friend of mine took the easy Way out because of some boo hoo story, truth of the matter was he was too weak to deal with it.

I'm sorry but I have no sympathy for attempted suicides. There are people fighting cancer in hospitals clinging on to every bit of life they have, there are mothers wishing that there babies would get better from horrible chances of fate.
People being killed every day trying to fight for the life you have.

Now this isn't going to sound very p.c or helpful but I wish all these lives that are waisted by the ones that don't want to be here could be given to the ones that want to live! And want to fight to live!

I know. It's awful and wrong but hey those are my views like it or lump it.

Now some advice for you little one.
Get over yourself! Try and view the world in a different way, look at all. These people that are really suffering and don't give up

So you don't give up.

Thank you for your suggestions... but I just wanted to know just because of these small issues how can I forget the moments I spend with him in past years... those moments are so special and I know am realizing I can't even love anybody on this earth.. how can I?. I just hope someday somehow.. he ll be back.. because I can't even imagine him with somebody else..

Well as others have said you can not change somebodies feelings for someone.

As far as getting your mother involved it is not up to your mother. It is not up to you.

You are seeking attention by doing things that could be harmful but that is not his fault. This is something you need to work on yourself.

I can understand why he does not want to be with you anymore. You have lots of issues that can only be helped by seeking a professional.

There are plenty of fish in the sea, meaning you might think he is the only one to love, but that is not true at all. There is always others that you could love. You just do not see it right now because your so obsessed over this person right now.
You never forget about the good moments. The good moments you should keep. Learning from the bad moments is important to do because if you do not learn from them you will continue to make the same mistakes in relationships.

Now for yourself, until you fix yourself up and actually get professional help for your mental and physical well being. Once you go through the process of finding out why your behaving this way, and how to hopefully fix it. Through counseling and also possibly through medication might be the only way to get past these things.

The best thing is what he is doing. Your trying to get his attention by negative scary acts, which he is not feeding into giving that attention. You need to work on those things yourself without him in the picture and he knows that.

Another thing that you have no control over is who he sees or talks to. That is up to him now. It is over and the relationship is done. The best thing you can do is let go of him.

Learn,
Counseling,
Medication

And then in the more distant future once you are able to fix yourself up and are stable enough to have a relationship you will be able to find somebody else that will even be better, the only reason it will be better. By then hopefully you will be in a better place and then your relationship will 100 percent better then the one you were in.

Before you can love someone else, you have to love yourself, and be healthy enough to give a healthy love.

I hope you get the right help to get there.

Just tell me one thing.. nobody wants to commit suicide... he left me for a stupid reason.. he is not getting any job and he wants to concentrate on his career.. I have also many issues but I have never mixed my tension with my relationship if a girl can handle her relationship then why not boys.. and before my decision of committing suicide he left me.. what is the difference now.. I have made mistake by doing lame things.. but this is not the way to left somebody according to your comfort.. the feelings of mine are nothing.. breakups are natural but they can be cure by understanding... but he thinks that girl friends got no connection with marriage... why? His thinking I just can't understand.. u love somebody but can't marry her.. just because this is not age of getting serious.. what is my fault.. I loved him with no condition.. I accept him with all his faults.. I tried to forget him.. but I failed.. so decided to commit suicide.. because each and everyday my pain is becoming worst and I can't take it..

How can you fail to see he doesn't want what you want, he doesn't do what you want him too, and he doesn't feel like you do. So you would rather kill yourself because you are in pain? That's crazy, because given enough time, your feelings will change, your thinking will change, and you will be ready for something better than what he has to offer you which is NOTHING!

We all go through emotional pain in life, yet we thrive and survive, and HEAL from what hurts us, and causes us pain. What you think that we all have it easy and experience no pain? WRONG! You think that you are the only one to be hurt, and disappointed? WRONG!

You must be very young, if you would rather take the easy way out rather than learn a better way to be happy. There are doctors that can help you cope, and that's a better option than taking your life to avoid emotional pain.

Its like taking NO for an answer, you have to accept it. What a waste if you don't want to work on yourself. Are you that afraid of dealing with yourself? You shouldn't be.

M getting itt.. I have to accept it... this is the problem.. I have not accept it yet.. that he is not with me any more.. m sorry.. thank you all..