Derragon
Sep 8, 2011, 03:31 PM
I am 21.
So I had a most disturbing dream last night, parts of it I cannot fully remember but suffice to say. I was in a building, mostly empty with a few people. The front of the building had a door to a city street and there was a door in the back to a small storage room. I was standing in the room when everyone left to go somewhere the last person turned the light off. I went to the storage room and was looking around. The storage room door had a window in it, I was standing in there when the light in the main room turned back on. I hid down behind the door, the person walked into the storage room and I noticed she was a very beautiful woman. I shut the door and grabbed her. I began to undress her and she was clearly upset, I fully intent on having sex with her. (I have had tons of other dreams where I did this and eventually they gave in and the sex became mutual) I got most of her clothes off and I stood her up to take her pants off, when I noticed her face and she was very upset but she didn't fight, she just kind of accepted it. I then decided to stop what I was doing, I told her to get dressed and I apologized, I told her that if I would have raped her I would have hated myself forever. Another person came into the main room and we both hid behind the door, the other person came into the storage room and looked for the woman I was with, not seeing her she left. The woman I tried to rape told me she wanted to leave and she had a party she needed to get to, I told her not to tell anyone and I kept apologizing I don't think she ever gave me an answer but I had the feeling she just wanted to get away from me and didn't want to tell anyone. She was going to walk to the place where she was having a party but I pleaded with her to let me drive her there so she didn't have to walk. I felt a great need to actually get to know her and get her to love me or something. She eventually agreed and I walked outside, I saw a car, a tan Cadillac with the front smashed in sitting in the middle of an intersection. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the keys for the car and was excited that I had them for some reason. We both got into the car and I proceeded to drive, she gave me directions to where we needed to go and I grew tired of waiting for red lights and stuff so I decided to break every law of the road. I drove through the first red light and made a sharp left turn and hit a side rail and quickly drove forward at another intersection I drove off the road and through some fences, for some reason I felt afraid for my life from the outside, like someone wanted to kill me so I kept going. I eventually stopped not knowing where I was I got out and let her drive. Next thing I remember we were at a bar and I was standing next to her, we had an argument, I think it was about how I tried to rape her and she was still upset and wanted me to leave. I got angry and told her that I am not the only one that makes mistakes and held out a signed baseball, and handed it to her, I implied that she had one as well and they were both fake and that she couldn't get onto me for what I did because she did something extremely foolish and questionable to get the baseball she had.
Then I woke up.
I am not really upset about it, kind of disturbed, I know it's just a dream, but I can't help think that it was something more. Why do I have tons of dreams where I expect all the women in them to have sex with me? Why do I do it and even though they always start upset they always give in? It happens a lot but this is the first time I can think of that I started and then stopped half way though.
So I had a most disturbing dream last night, parts of it I cannot fully remember but suffice to say. I was in a building, mostly empty with a few people. The front of the building had a door to a city street and there was a door in the back to a small storage room. I was standing in the room when everyone left to go somewhere the last person turned the light off. I went to the storage room and was looking around. The storage room door had a window in it, I was standing in there when the light in the main room turned back on. I hid down behind the door, the person walked into the storage room and I noticed she was a very beautiful woman. I shut the door and grabbed her. I began to undress her and she was clearly upset, I fully intent on having sex with her. (I have had tons of other dreams where I did this and eventually they gave in and the sex became mutual) I got most of her clothes off and I stood her up to take her pants off, when I noticed her face and she was very upset but she didn't fight, she just kind of accepted it. I then decided to stop what I was doing, I told her to get dressed and I apologized, I told her that if I would have raped her I would have hated myself forever. Another person came into the main room and we both hid behind the door, the other person came into the storage room and looked for the woman I was with, not seeing her she left. The woman I tried to rape told me she wanted to leave and she had a party she needed to get to, I told her not to tell anyone and I kept apologizing I don't think she ever gave me an answer but I had the feeling she just wanted to get away from me and didn't want to tell anyone. She was going to walk to the place where she was having a party but I pleaded with her to let me drive her there so she didn't have to walk. I felt a great need to actually get to know her and get her to love me or something. She eventually agreed and I walked outside, I saw a car, a tan Cadillac with the front smashed in sitting in the middle of an intersection. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the keys for the car and was excited that I had them for some reason. We both got into the car and I proceeded to drive, she gave me directions to where we needed to go and I grew tired of waiting for red lights and stuff so I decided to break every law of the road. I drove through the first red light and made a sharp left turn and hit a side rail and quickly drove forward at another intersection I drove off the road and through some fences, for some reason I felt afraid for my life from the outside, like someone wanted to kill me so I kept going. I eventually stopped not knowing where I was I got out and let her drive. Next thing I remember we were at a bar and I was standing next to her, we had an argument, I think it was about how I tried to rape her and she was still upset and wanted me to leave. I got angry and told her that I am not the only one that makes mistakes and held out a signed baseball, and handed it to her, I implied that she had one as well and they were both fake and that she couldn't get onto me for what I did because she did something extremely foolish and questionable to get the baseball she had.
Then I woke up.
I am not really upset about it, kind of disturbed, I know it's just a dream, but I can't help think that it was something more. Why do I have tons of dreams where I expect all the women in them to have sex with me? Why do I do it and even though they always start upset they always give in? It happens a lot but this is the first time I can think of that I started and then stopped half way though.