I just need someone to listen to me judgment free can anyone help

Set it all down here, riverwolf.

Tick

I don't know where to begin I'm so frustrated no one seems to under stand I just want to know someone believes me that I'm not crazy that what I feel and what my body tells me is right this may get kind of crazy and complicated if you want to back out I completely understand

I'm here too -- judgment free. Start at the beginning.

All right I know this is goanna be kind a weird but here goes I am having a lot of problems with my health I am over weight and I know it I know that things would be essayer if I were not so heavy but it is not the cause of all my problems you can't imagine hoe frustrating it is to have every one tell you that if you would only lose the weight you would have no more problems it doesn't work that way I have gone to doctor after doctor with my problem and the only awnsers I get I its all in your head and if you would just lose the weight you would be all better it makes me feel like the lowest slug on the ground I have thought many times that it would be essayer to just end it then I would not be n pain any more I just don't know what to do no one understand I am second guessing my own sanity can I really trust my body my instinct's that tell me there is something not right or am I just crazy is it all just in my head I don't know any more the pain feels real

I don't believe it's all in your head. What are some of the problems you are having with your health?

Alright I know this is goanna be kind a weird but here goes I am having a lot of problems with my health I am over weight and I know it I know that things would be essayer if I were not so heavy but it is not the cause of all my problems you can't imagine hoe frustrating it is to have every one tell you that if you would only lose the weight you would have no more problems it doesn't work that way I have gone to doctor after doctor with my problem and the only awnsers I get I its all in your head and if you would just lose the weight you would be all better it makes me feel like the lowest slug on the ground I have thought many times that it would be essayer to just end it then I would not be n pain any more I just don't know what to do no one understand I am second guessing my own sanity can I really trust my body my instinct's that tell me there is something not right or am I just crazy is it all just in my head I don't know any more the pain feels real

Okay, riverwolf, I get it, but please use some discipline and follow our guidelines; use proper english, break up your paragraphs with sentences and start over again.

You have very low self esteem and that is the problem, right ? So we get you out of that by talking, but we can't unless your cooperate and take it slow, one sentence at a time. No kidding.

Tick

Well I have never had a regular cycle in fact 7 years ago it stopped for no reason and then about 5 months ago I started it was the worst thing that I have ever felt it lasted about two months that was after not having one no lining growth in essence I was in menopause then just two weeks ago it happened again so I went to the doctor and he blew it off saying that it wasn't a cycle that I was a problem with my bowels or my balder like I was just making it up to get attention and I work with my mom she is home bond she can't walk on her own so I have to pull on her a lot an I have in the past hurt my shoulder badly and I can not use my shoulder or arm any more and no one will take me seriously its like they don't want to take the time to care that they can not see past my weight that's all I am to them but I'm so much more ten that I get so sad that I cry myself to sleep I know my body I know when something is wrong and I have a felling that something ruptured that's why I was having a cycle I'm at my wits end some times I just want it to end thanks for listening

Will you tell us how old you are?

I am 27 years old

One important thing I learned when I worked for two years in a physical therapy department was how to move patients without killing myself (or them). Does your mom have a visiting nurse who will come over to show you how to move her so you don't hurt yourself?

Have you tried more than one doctor (i.e. gotten a second opinion) about your physical problems?

Hi river, thanks for giving us more information. I didn't know till now you were a female, because of your avatar, I thought possibly a male. We can follow you a lot better when you post if you just break up your paragraphs with sentences.

It is great hearing from you again.

Tick

Yes I got a second opinion. That doctor just told me to live with it. He said that there was nothing wrong with me. That it was not a problem. Like I was making it all up.

Yes I got a second opinion. That doctor just told me to live with it. He said that there was nothing wrong with me. That it was not a problem. Like I was making it all up.

Then this is a family doctor, right? You go to another doctor and get a third opinion, river. That is all there is to it. A fresh doctor, a fresh opinion. Assert yourself until you get results. It is your body and your health.
Tick

I'll try that thanks.

I'll try that thanks.

Yes, try it... your post doesn't seem to give much in the way of really trying, but once you get your dander up, river, and realize that no one is going to give you a hard time if you can help it, then you get things done. Until then, nothing will be done. Do you think we ALL have confidence, no way, but once it gets down to basic needs, then you have to make it a point. I have had to do that for my son, myself, my mom, now gone and even stepped into my husbands shoes who is not particular thankful for anything I do for him, but if I NEED IT DONE, THEN IT DO IT.

Hug

River, I really like your avvy and your name by the way. Can you tell me how you came by the name 'riverfox'. I know you are from Alabama so is this a fox species in a way. We have foxes here on our street in Ontario which is really very rural; they are a small species, no bigger then a beagle and very thin, red and white and black.

Thanks

Thanks for listening the name is a nickname for a retriever because of the color and proportions

I need some one to talk I need to get this off my chest

There are many of us out here, what would you like to tell us

What is it watever it is its important

APRIL 27 2011

Hello riverwolf, why is that date significant?

Ot's the day i came so close to dying do you know of a town called huntsville alabama

Yes, I know of Huntsville. I met you on your other thread [now both are merged].

How can we help you? Did you find a different doctor?

I've merged your two threads. Please don't start a new thread for the same issue. Also, when you are posting you have tell us what you need help with.

This site lists several places in Huntsville where you can go to talk to someone one on one.

You did get good advice and friendly ears when you posted previously. Have you listened and followed that advice?

Yes i did thanks to you but i now have a new problem i seem to have a lot of anger then a lot of sadness

Please don't type in caps. (On the Internet, that is considered shouting.)

Did some recent event start the anger-sadness problem?

OK river wolf, you have to actually tell us things if you want to discuss them, If you want to discuss things, please tell us what is happening

I don't really know I guess it started on the 27 of April.I just haven't dealt with it. So much happened that day that I kind a shut down my emotions and pushed it to the back of my mind

What happened that day?

We had the largest tornado out break in the history of Alabama. Over 200 people lost there lives that day

How were you affected?

I was home alone when the sirens started going off. We have no tornado shelter so I was huddled in my living room praying to god to keep me safe.I could see the f5 tornado bearing down on me.My house started to shake and the roaring of the winds will haunt me forever.When the storm had passed and I was able to get out side it was indescribable it looked like a war zone all there was death and destruction as far as the eye could see

I've seen photos. They show terrible destruction. We had three bad storms in July that pulled apart our beautiful old magnolia tree and ripped off our gutters, but no other damage.

I'm glad you survived. So then what did you do?

At first there was so much ciaos hat I didn't know where to turn .A after the shock wore off we were faced with a 8 day blackout.I just went in to survival mode and salvaged what I could and with the help of neghibors I was able to make it through. But I have been unable to sort out my feelings I hate mother nature for what she did. I blamed god for letting it happen.Looking at all the destructiom made me sad then agry.I could'nt understand why I lived whille my nebioure and friends and family and my community has to die

Hi river, tick here, sorry you had to go through that, so many people in dire straights around the globe; not only us on this continent. I hope most people can pick up the pieces and go on with their lives.

I am so glad you are posting with us again. It is great to here from you so keep it all coming.

Tick