I'm a 41 yr old lady that has been in several serious relationships (at least they were to me) I always seem to be the one who always try to make a relationship work when the man says he is through, or he has cheated on me.

Now I'm in a situation where I love two guys but the difference is one of them I have been in a 5yr relationship with, while the other has just been a boy toy. Now that the 5yr relationship is coming to an end, because of all the drama we been through, I still don't want to let go. But at the same time I kind of moved in with my boy toy, that now believes we are in a relationship. Since I have been over at the apt with him, I've learned things that I don't like about him, and sometimes I feel as if I don't want to be with either one of them.

I'm so confused, and don't know what to do, and I really don't like being alone. What shall I do?

Signed lost, confused and stupid.


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Sorry, but as long as you are a slave to your fear of being alone, you will always be a liar, and cheater, and be with others who lie and cheat.

I strongly suggest you at least get help and guidance to learn to be independent and happy just being yourself, so you can end this dependence of having somebody, anybody, to be somebody.

That's something you can do to stop the confusion, and feelings of being stupid. Be someone for yourself.

Sorry, but as long as you are a slave to your fear of being alone, you will always be a liar, and cheater, and be with others who lie and cheat.

I strongly suggest you at least get help and guidance to learn to be independent and happy just being yourself, so you can end this dependence of having somebody, anybody, to be somebody.

Thats something you can do to stop the confusion, and feelings of being stupid. be someone for yourself.

Out of reps but you got that covered. Nothing to add.