Forgetyou929
Jul 24, 2011, 11:46 PM
4 years ago I met Kevin. And he was everything a girl could ever want.. we were so romantic, sexy, and close. He was quite, concerned, and deeply caring for my well-being. Then through drama, we had a horrible break up, and ended it. We didn't even wave or glance at each other when we passed on the street.
About a years later, I met this guy named Ross. He was funny, silly guy. I was instantly attracted to his outragous humor and loud personality. It was so different that Kevin.. so crazy! You could say I "fell in love at first sight." I loved him secretly for two years, then told him my feelings. At first he was hesitant, then he invited me over his house nearly everyday. We had a lot of fun together making food, playing games, gossiping. He finally asked me out and I was sooo excited. We only went out for a month, then he dumped me. A couple days after that I heard he only felt a need to "take care of me" and that's why he dated me. I felt so heartbroken. I hated him, yet I still loved him. Oh, with all my heart did I love him and still do. So I ignore him whenever I see him.. and when he tried to talk to me.. I yelled at him to get a girlfriend and move forward in life.
So, skip a little ahead to last Jan. I was put in class with BOTH of them. I felt completely confused. They BOTH tried talking to me again, fighting over me, then joining forces and yelling at my insecurities. Ross tried inviting me over his house and when I did go over he would wrestle me to the ground (did nothing sexual though) and tease me. And Kevin tried to learn about my past love life by pushing me to the wall and pushing my arms above my head (sometimes he would try to kiss me). To be completely honest I had no idea how I felt that whole semester. I went back and forth 20% of the time, 80% of the time I was confused or trying my best to avoid them
Kevin then admitted he has thought of me everyday after the break up. He regrets it a lot and wishes to be with me forever... even if we go to different colleges in a couple months. He would do anything to be with me again. I couldn't help but agree to date him and give him another chance. And now we are happy together. However, he has slept with A LOT of girls. So is he just using me so he can sleep with me? Or is he saying the truth?
What is worse is.. I still love Ross.. I tried getting over him (even slapping myself every time I thought of him). But, unlike Kevin, he is friends with ALL my friends AND going to my college next year.
Should I just ignore my feelings for Ross and go for Kevin? How can I forget Ross when I see him every time I hang out with my friends? Should I trust Kevin when I heard he was a playboy?
Maybe I should just "go with the flow" and I am thinking too much.
This is my dilemma. This is how I feel. Please help me.
About a years later, I met this guy named Ross. He was funny, silly guy. I was instantly attracted to his outragous humor and loud personality. It was so different that Kevin.. so crazy! You could say I "fell in love at first sight." I loved him secretly for two years, then told him my feelings. At first he was hesitant, then he invited me over his house nearly everyday. We had a lot of fun together making food, playing games, gossiping. He finally asked me out and I was sooo excited. We only went out for a month, then he dumped me. A couple days after that I heard he only felt a need to "take care of me" and that's why he dated me. I felt so heartbroken. I hated him, yet I still loved him. Oh, with all my heart did I love him and still do. So I ignore him whenever I see him.. and when he tried to talk to me.. I yelled at him to get a girlfriend and move forward in life.
So, skip a little ahead to last Jan. I was put in class with BOTH of them. I felt completely confused. They BOTH tried talking to me again, fighting over me, then joining forces and yelling at my insecurities. Ross tried inviting me over his house and when I did go over he would wrestle me to the ground (did nothing sexual though) and tease me. And Kevin tried to learn about my past love life by pushing me to the wall and pushing my arms above my head (sometimes he would try to kiss me). To be completely honest I had no idea how I felt that whole semester. I went back and forth 20% of the time, 80% of the time I was confused or trying my best to avoid them
Kevin then admitted he has thought of me everyday after the break up. He regrets it a lot and wishes to be with me forever... even if we go to different colleges in a couple months. He would do anything to be with me again. I couldn't help but agree to date him and give him another chance. And now we are happy together. However, he has slept with A LOT of girls. So is he just using me so he can sleep with me? Or is he saying the truth?
What is worse is.. I still love Ross.. I tried getting over him (even slapping myself every time I thought of him). But, unlike Kevin, he is friends with ALL my friends AND going to my college next year.
Should I just ignore my feelings for Ross and go for Kevin? How can I forget Ross when I see him every time I hang out with my friends? Should I trust Kevin when I heard he was a playboy?
Maybe I should just "go with the flow" and I am thinking too much.
This is my dilemma. This is how I feel. Please help me.