I dated my ex for four years, we started young at the age of 17. She broke up with me almost a year and a half ago now. I was crushed inside when it all happened. Within a week she was already with some guy she worked with. We didn't talk for two months since the breakup and eventually she started calling and texting. We would talk like best friends it was so weird how we were with everything that happened. I was in night school for college and started dating a girl from my class. I ended up going on a cruise with this girl that I just met thinking why not. Meanwhile me and my ex were talking the whole time just like best friends. I kind of forced myself into that relationship cause I needed to move on which was a mistake on my part. On the cruise my ex would text and call me everyday always saying how she missed her "best friend." She would always say things like I could see us getting back together and that I miss you. We ended up getting back together six months after the breakup. The night I came back from the cruise she begged to see me and we went to dinner and she said she wants to take things slow try again and so we did. We were together for 3 months. I ended up realizing that the only reason she wanted to get back together was because she couldn't see me with another girl and told me how jealous she was all the time. She ended up being with that same guy, she's been off and on with him since the whole time we've been broken up but to her there just sleeping together and dated a few times on and off. Until this day we talk like the best of friends, we act just like the old us except for the sexuall stuff. To her I'm her best friend and I have to be in her life. But to me I'm still madly in love with her and just feel like a gay best friend (no offense to anyone), which she denys to no end. I understand that when you fall in love you become best friends and that's what happened but she still wants to be best friends and talk and hangout all that time even though she's with the other guy. Meanwhile telling me she misses me and talks to highly of me and says styuff like she regrets ever leaving me. We have talked about getting back together but not like literal and she comes up with we could never work right now cause there's just too much water under the bridge like too much stuff has happened for us to work right now and honestly I think she's right way too much has happened between us and there's just way too much to type to say the half of it. Sometimes I also think that she just misses me because how I treated her. I did everything for her and her family which I still remain close with. She always says to me no guy is ever going to be good enough because you spolied me so bad nobody comes close to you. Its true I spolied her in every way I could but only because I love her deeply. Of course its nice to hear all that good stuff said about me but at the same time it tears me up inside cause if I'm that good to her then why can't we work?