KOconrado
May 25, 2011, 09:37 PM
Here is my story guys. When I was working at a retail store in 2008, I saw this intriguing female worker there. I was immmediaely drawn to her. I started talking to her soon after. She was a shy girl, beautiful, but didn't have many friends. She was also from a different country, so her point of view was a lot different that american women. I liked her.
It took a while of calling her and being playful and stuff for her to go out with me. At first everything was great. We went to a movies and enjoyed a cab ride, and walked all the way back to her house. The kiss I got from her at the end of the date just blew me ayay. At first I would say I was in lust, but as the relationship went on I really started to care about her a lot. We spent everyday with her for the next 6 months or so and enjoyed every minute. Then we started drifing apart. I think we spent too much time together. I think she wanted to do her own thing. Now I realized I demanded way too much from her. I was into sex too much and didn't respect her enough.
Thing is I was younger and more driven by the wrong motives. I found out one day she kissed another guy and I got into a drunken rage and walked down to her house and demanded the ring I gave to her at her high school graduation. I completely lost control of myself. I never though she would kiss another guy. She broke up with me in August 2009. We still worked at he same place until July 2010. I'm glad where we worked was big enough where we hardly saw each other. It was so painful to see her completely ignore me. She treated me like I was a nobody to her and it made me feel like complete ****.
When she broke up with me she said I needed to change. During that time I was going through a hard time because my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer. I was taking care of her with my sister on hospice care until she died in May 2011. I was having to leave to work. I was stressing out so much back then because I was hurting from the breakup and my mom being sick. After we broke up she wanted to see a movie.
I had a chance to be with her again but when the day came to go with her I got scared that she would reject me again, that I didn't go. We haven't really been talking all that much since lately. I would call her once in a while, mostly when I was drunk because I had no inhibitions of calling her then. One day about a month ago, I had went with a buddy of mine to a bar and I had a little too much to drink, so when I got home I had sent her a message on Facebook.
The next day she sends me a friend request on Facebook. We started chatting on Facebook chat the next morning and I really enjoyed that. So lately she has been looking for a job and I have helped her with her resume. We met up last week for the first time in two years. It was hard just trying to hold my feeling for her inside, but I was just talking to her, nothing more.
Anyway I'm in a limbo on what to do with her right now. Just now she sent me a text saying she wants to go hiking and I want to do that. What do you guys think? Sorry this is long.
It took a while of calling her and being playful and stuff for her to go out with me. At first everything was great. We went to a movies and enjoyed a cab ride, and walked all the way back to her house. The kiss I got from her at the end of the date just blew me ayay. At first I would say I was in lust, but as the relationship went on I really started to care about her a lot. We spent everyday with her for the next 6 months or so and enjoyed every minute. Then we started drifing apart. I think we spent too much time together. I think she wanted to do her own thing. Now I realized I demanded way too much from her. I was into sex too much and didn't respect her enough.
Thing is I was younger and more driven by the wrong motives. I found out one day she kissed another guy and I got into a drunken rage and walked down to her house and demanded the ring I gave to her at her high school graduation. I completely lost control of myself. I never though she would kiss another guy. She broke up with me in August 2009. We still worked at he same place until July 2010. I'm glad where we worked was big enough where we hardly saw each other. It was so painful to see her completely ignore me. She treated me like I was a nobody to her and it made me feel like complete ****.
When she broke up with me she said I needed to change. During that time I was going through a hard time because my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer. I was taking care of her with my sister on hospice care until she died in May 2011. I was having to leave to work. I was stressing out so much back then because I was hurting from the breakup and my mom being sick. After we broke up she wanted to see a movie.
I had a chance to be with her again but when the day came to go with her I got scared that she would reject me again, that I didn't go. We haven't really been talking all that much since lately. I would call her once in a while, mostly when I was drunk because I had no inhibitions of calling her then. One day about a month ago, I had went with a buddy of mine to a bar and I had a little too much to drink, so when I got home I had sent her a message on Facebook.
The next day she sends me a friend request on Facebook. We started chatting on Facebook chat the next morning and I really enjoyed that. So lately she has been looking for a job and I have helped her with her resume. We met up last week for the first time in two years. It was hard just trying to hold my feeling for her inside, but I was just talking to her, nothing more.
Anyway I'm in a limbo on what to do with her right now. Just now she sent me a text saying she wants to go hiking and I want to do that. What do you guys think? Sorry this is long.