Hi Everybody. I am a 14 year old girl and I have all the symptoms of depression. It all started when I found out I was moving in 8th grade. I felt like my life was falling apart because the place where I had grown up, was no longer going to be mine. My entire family lives there and all of my best friends so it was a very hard time for me. I moved across the U.S. and it was very difficult to be there with just my mom, uncle, and aunt. My parents are married but due to the economy my dad had to stay back home with my sister who is in college (I am closer to my father and sister than my mother)

My mother and I don't really get along often. Her and my sister do, and I get along better with my father. My mom always yells at me and takes out her stress from work and being apart from her husband and her perfect older daughter out on me. :( It's a lot to deal with all while losing the best friends from home that you honestly thought you would always keep. I made amazing friends here too though, and I have the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world. But once again, mom doesn't know because she's too strict and she would flip. I never feel like doing anything anymore because now I found out I am moving back.. You think this would be a positive thing, but since I lost all my friends there, I don't have much to go back to aside from family, and I am happy about that but sad to leave my new best friends and my boyfriend. I have cut my wrists a few times before, not badly, but just as a stress reliever. I have tried pretty much everything but that seems to be the only thing that helps. Also, my grandpa is getting really sick and I have never lost anybody before so I am really scared. My cousin that lives in my house with my sister and dad said that my dad is turning into an alcoholic, which really scares me because he has sezuires and the doctors told him not to drink with the meds he has to take because it'll increase the chances of them. I have a lot on my plate and I just don't know what to do anymore.

Best friends from home--gone.
Motivation for anything-- gone.
Grades--worse than they should be.
Relationship with mom-- gone.


Everything just seems to be falling apart. I don't want to move back but I have no choice considering that my parents made up their mind now. They think I don't like it here because I didn't for the longest time. But now I love school because my friends and stuff are there. Also, I'm not allowed to go out often because my mom is so strict, so it's hard to have fun. When I want some space, she's always in my business. When I want to hang out with her, she's too busy. I don't understand.. I have thought about running away a few times, but people have convinced me not to.

I am just lost. I had suicidal thoughts last night and I don't want anything to go too far. That's why I need help.

Hey anon96.. I hope you're coping with your depression fine as of now.. sorry that no one answered your question right away..

I'm a 16 year old boy.. honest..

Okay first things first, find your inner peace somewhere.. there must be a place in your house where you can have some time to yourself to think of what you can do to improve what you think needs to be improved about you and your moms relationship.. I mean.. if your older sister gets along with her more, why don't you ask her to talk to your mom for you? What are older siblings for right?
Secondly, depression is a serious thing.. if you try to avoid talking about it, it might actually worsen. I know that it hurts ( I've gone through it myself ) but from experience, I find that talking about it with a friend that you can trust will help in taking the first step into getting over it.
Third, hey, you got to move back and be with your old friends right? Get cheered up about that.. I mean, even though your stuck at home, try to invite them over your house if you can..
Finally.. embrace your life.. you know, you're only 14 you have your future ahead of you. If you commit suicde, then all you're doing is hurting yourself, and your loved ones.. think of the people who you care about and count your blessings..

And anytime you feel depressed again.. just message me or something.. ask a question.. hope you feel better.. later!