I don't know when this happened or how all this started, but I have found myself having feelings for a gay guy. He is just so easy to talk to and funny. I have known him now about, oh I would say seven months he actually is the reason we became friends(we had this class together) and he just came up and started talking to me. We hit it off right then and there, over these last few months we have become great friends and he always telling me how I'am his BFF. We even partied on his brithday together.
The problem Boopie(my gay friends nickname made it up himself lol) is one of those people who just seems to grab the spotlight and keep your eyes on him at all times. And my other friends are now complaing of how I never talk to them like I use to, first I thought they where just joking around, but now their just being mean it seems to me. I think it hurts them for some reason that I have a new friend in mylife, Its not like I left them, boopie and all us hang out together and everything.
They seem to think that boopie and I flirt, but I just don't see it. An old friend of mine who I see almost everyday seems to think that to. And all ways jokes about how I'am changing him. And then out of know where she tells me he didn't use to be gay ya'know.
The turing point Monday when my friends, and I where chatting just before class started boopie came up and started talking to me yelling out my nickname. And then out of know where he slaped me (playing), my friends start to laugh I didn't think it was funny and started acting like I was all hurt. And then we both started laughing and out of know where he kissed me. On my cheek, but for my friends that did and they where trying to switch it all around like I kissed him. But for some reason I have to say I do have feeling for him like when he leans his head on my shoulder I wish sometimes he would keep it there, just a little longer.
And one day when we where walking, and for reason something in me just had to lean on him and when I did he just cuddeld me right up. I can't really explain the way I feel about him in words I feel as though I have no one to talk to about this... I've never felt this way about another person in my life! I keep trying to tell myself I only feel this way because he is what I am a girl so I am very comfortable with him ,and I only have those feelings about him because he is a guy. He is just so loving and caring. Its like if I'am not with hime I'am thinking about him.or I'am wishing he was their with me.
It's as though I get lost when he's talking to me in his hazel eyes,I never new anyone else noticed.(I love hazel eyes) one day when we where talking he said he only talks to people who he feels has something intriguing about them, I asked him what did he find intriguing about me? He said it was my beauty and my long hair.(He is just such a sweetheart) I guess out of all this what I'am really trying to ask is how do I deal with the fact that I have fallen for my gay best friends.

Tell him how you feel and look at his reaction? Who knows, he might be Bi and may give you a chance, however be prepared to take a rejection if he is truly gay or simply does not think of you as anything more than a good friend.

Good Luck,
Javi

Yet again, you are allowing yourself to get carried away by your own feelings.

Listen, just because you have feelings that are intense, and exciting doesn't mean you have to lose all control and common sense, and act on them.

My gosh, your past experiences should have told you that. Get yourself under control, please before you get yourself in trouble. Can't you just be friends, and have fun without getting all hyped up over your own feelings??

Exercise some self control!!

Love, respect and appreciation of another human being is never a waste of time.
It is also not unusual that a best friends will occupy a lot of your time.(girl or boy)

You connect with this friend on a deep level.
He came into your life for a reason so just relax and enjoy his company.

If he is truly gay he will set the limits so relax. Good luck!