Joseph2Smith_88
May 4, 2011, 01:16 PM
Like magic, I met this beautiful, smart girl (let's call her Kim). We started to talk. We talked each day more and more, because we shared a lot of things. I could not believe my luck. We were not dating, but we had out close moments.
Of course, as time went by, we were fighting more and more, but we always came to our senses.
I started to fall in love with her, the close moments were still there.
Like I said, we never dated and sometimes she had one night stands with other guys and that was like an arrow through my heart.
Of course, I also had "another best" friend (let's call him Curtis), and it was sometimes difficult to make her happy.
We changed schools and I felt we were drifting away, especially because I was hurt by the way she sometimes treated me. But I never lost my love for her, I always thought we had something special.
We started talking less and less, she started to talk to another girl (let's call her Wanda) and they became best friends.
So, when I realized this I did not know her anymore. We had nothing to talk about, because we were not close anymore.
Meanwhile, Curtis moved to another city, my parents were (and still are) having an on/off relationship and a friend of mine came to my school and turned out to be a pain in the butt (James). He's a nice guy, but I don't feel happy when I am with him (another problem I don't know how to deal with it, because he considers me a close friend).
After all this, Kim and Wanda were getting badly treated by our class (which only came to give me more pain, seeing 2 people I liked getting this kind of treatment. I tried to stand up for them. But I'm not strong, convincing, respectable or anything else in those categories).
In the end, I received the news that Curtis was coming back, but James will be "on my ***" and I will not be able to be free with my real best friend, Curtis.
And, Kim and Wanda are changing schools, which was the final nail in my coffin. I still love Kim (I still consider her the most beautiful girl I have ever seen) and for me it will be another Summer wasted with tears.
I never thought this would end this way. I'm just so depressed, right now, in this phase of my life. I feel Kim is going to be my only true love. For me, she is perfect. I don't want another girl, but I can't face that our close friendship is stuck in the past.
For hard as it is, I don't want to forget her. We dreamed of travelling together and be together for sometime, but now I feel like she's happier and that I am miserable and that I meant nothing to her.
Sorry for the long post, but can anybody help me?
Of course, as time went by, we were fighting more and more, but we always came to our senses.
I started to fall in love with her, the close moments were still there.
Like I said, we never dated and sometimes she had one night stands with other guys and that was like an arrow through my heart.
Of course, I also had "another best" friend (let's call him Curtis), and it was sometimes difficult to make her happy.
We changed schools and I felt we were drifting away, especially because I was hurt by the way she sometimes treated me. But I never lost my love for her, I always thought we had something special.
We started talking less and less, she started to talk to another girl (let's call her Wanda) and they became best friends.
So, when I realized this I did not know her anymore. We had nothing to talk about, because we were not close anymore.
Meanwhile, Curtis moved to another city, my parents were (and still are) having an on/off relationship and a friend of mine came to my school and turned out to be a pain in the butt (James). He's a nice guy, but I don't feel happy when I am with him (another problem I don't know how to deal with it, because he considers me a close friend).
After all this, Kim and Wanda were getting badly treated by our class (which only came to give me more pain, seeing 2 people I liked getting this kind of treatment. I tried to stand up for them. But I'm not strong, convincing, respectable or anything else in those categories).
In the end, I received the news that Curtis was coming back, but James will be "on my ***" and I will not be able to be free with my real best friend, Curtis.
And, Kim and Wanda are changing schools, which was the final nail in my coffin. I still love Kim (I still consider her the most beautiful girl I have ever seen) and for me it will be another Summer wasted with tears.
I never thought this would end this way. I'm just so depressed, right now, in this phase of my life. I feel Kim is going to be my only true love. For me, she is perfect. I don't want another girl, but I can't face that our close friendship is stuck in the past.
For hard as it is, I don't want to forget her. We dreamed of travelling together and be together for sometime, but now I feel like she's happier and that I am miserable and that I meant nothing to her.
Sorry for the long post, but can anybody help me?