Ok my sister is 15 and Bulimic and cutting. My dad is Bi-Polar, and my mom is depressed. All right main story, I am absent waaaaaaaaaaay too much ( I think because of stress... I make myself sick from stress... ) so I went to court and while my sister's friends were helping her and my parents were doing the same I am in the corner ready to peel out my eyes. I am depressed and I have a lot of things going on in school to. My sister isn't aware of how much she is affecting me, she thinks it only hurts her but that is NOT true. Some days I just feel so alone, probably because I am, my parents are paying attention to my sister to make sure she gets better and is leaving me in the dark.l I feel like I am going to explode. Some times I get so mad that I TRY to mke myself cry but I CAN'T I want to but I can't so I get madder... then I feel like there is too much to think about, so much that I feel like my head is going to explode because I don't know anything... and put it together. It also hurts to know my sister is Bulimic 1. because I can hear her and it makes me feel awful 2. I am 3 years younger than her and I weight 40 more pounds (I am 220) so I feel soooooooo fat. Sometimes when I get so mad I want to cut but I am too much of a coward. Because of my absentees I am behind in school which is making me soooo stressed, and I have anxiety. I don't have many friends, and the ones I do have aren't that good and don't care about my problems. Am I selfish? What can I do? How can I make myself cry?

First not cutting is not being a coward, since cutting is just stupid to start with, not cutting is showing some brains.

Next talk to someone, school counselor, a religious leader of your faith