Ok so my depressed boyfriend dumped me and I want him back... I consume so much of my time thinking about him and bla bla bla I need to stop, Im getting myself depressed, I miss him so much and it hurts like hell knowing he doesn't love me anymore or anyone else because love is so exhausting.

Im hoping he comes back to me once he's better but the thought of him not and finding someone else is killing me.

Anyway Ive decided to try make myself happy... Ive been unhappy with my weight forever basically but I'm one of those people who once I get down about it I go right ahead and eat therefore I'm a pretty bad comfort eater.

I don't have much money so I can't afford to go the gym and food... I can't really afford to go buy my own food either so I need to eat whatever is in the house, but I could try convince my mum to buy certain stuff.

Ok so here's the low down... Im 21 years old, Im a female with PCOS (therefore my insulin intake is all messed up I store it instead of using it or something, maybe you know better because I know I dont) Im 5'1, weigh 270lbs and I'm a UK size 22/24. I'll admit I look pretty good for a fat person, I have a pretty face and my body is proportionate and look pretty good naked for being fat but that's besides the point... who cares if their a good looking fat person if they don't want to be fat!!

It makes me insecure and paranoid and jealous and I always look at other girls and think why can't I look like that or I wish I looked like that and yeah... my thoughts and very good when it comes to this subject.

I would like to get myself down to a size 12 at least and weigh like 120/130lbs. So how do I do it??
Oh and Id also like to try get to a size 16/18 by August, is this possible? And once again how?

Losing weight is not easy and keeping it off is even harder, consult your doctor. My weight has gone up and down for years before I got it under control, the main thing is, weight loss is not a diet or a drug to be successful you need to make permanent life style changes in how, what when and how much you eat. I found I rewarded myself with food. I ate when I was happy as a reward and when I was blue to cheer myself up. I ate too fast so I ate more than enough because I did not realize I was full till after I had already passed the point of being full. For me stopping eating out unless I was traveling was a big help. Restaurant food is too rich too much butter and oils because fat taste good and the portions were too large.
Now the most important thing I can say is you have to loose the weight for yourself not for a boyfriend, if he was going to leave you for your weight he would leave you for something else anyway.

I suspect you know the basics.

Replace the white carbs (sugar, bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, cereals) with vegetables and whole fruits. Get plenty of protein and healthy fats, cut out all the processed and low fat junk foods, and eat fresh whole foods. Base your diet on eggs, oily fish, fresh meat and chicken, lots and lots of green veg, olive oil, some dairy, some nuts, fruit, wholegrains.

This will help to control the PCOS as well as your weight. With PCOS, you are never going to get useful results by eating low fat or low point foods, they all have too much sugar and refined carbs. Stick with whole foods. Fortunately, that's the sort of food that your parents are likely to be buying.

Watch your portion size. Eat when you are hungry, but stop eating when you are no longer hungry. Don't keep eating until all the food is gone. And don't buy sweets, crisps, biscuits etc. If they are in the house, you'll eat them.

Be generally active. You don't have to join a gym, but it's worth buying a pedometer (some of the pounds shops have them for a pound) and trying to increase your number of steps every day. If you cycle, so much the better, cycling is a brilliant way to get fit while saving money.

Turn off the television. There is a strong correlation between hours spent in front of the TV and obesity. Apart from everything else, the TV encourages mindless eating. Record your favourite programs, and then you don't have to stay in to watch them.

Go to bed on time. Again, lack of sleep really messes with your insulin levels and makes it next to impossible to lose weight.