lost900
Mar 26, 2011, 03:59 PM
OK for about three months now I have know this really amazing girl. Just as soon as we met we instantly liked each other a lot(with both us claiming this was our best relationship due to past ones) she was so many things that made me proud to be with her she was smart,funny, extremely active in her church(she plays guitar in the her youth band) and has a strong faith in god.
Well everything was going great until last week she started to act extremely depressed and starting telling me that she felt that she was going to screw us up and that everything was going to fall to pieces and afraid of hurting me. I been trying my hardest to reassure her and think more positive on us but it seemed like she kept pushing me aside(we never fought or argued everything seemed fine).
Well she broke up with me last Friday as she felt that god was telling her to not be with anyone right now and she felt she should listen. Well I been trying to understanding and supportive but as of late I feel like I'm acting selfish and feeling sorry for myself something that has been annoying me and I have not been face to face with her since last Friday as I feel I need to give her space (but she has made the first contact with me on Facebook the last few days) and with everyday I keep getting more information on things like with her still having a slight crush on her ex and still having a huge one on me.
Well I have come to some sort of conclusion that she had lied about god telling her to not be in a relationship with anyone cause I have found out today that she had gotten back with her ex today. It really does upset me cause she was not just telling me but also some of her good friends as well that she should stay single like the lord ask her to, but then she tells just one person that god was telling her to go back to her ex.
Of course all of us did not believe this guy but after today it was reveled he was right. Right now I just feel so hurt at the fact that she had to lied and it really makes me question what we had was real at all.like for example we had hung out after school that Friday two hours before she broke up with me I really don't see why she could not do it then and not over Facebook. I guess in a sense her just telling me that she was breaking up with me for her ex would have hurt a lot less than having find out a week later and being lied to...
Well everything was going great until last week she started to act extremely depressed and starting telling me that she felt that she was going to screw us up and that everything was going to fall to pieces and afraid of hurting me. I been trying my hardest to reassure her and think more positive on us but it seemed like she kept pushing me aside(we never fought or argued everything seemed fine).
Well she broke up with me last Friday as she felt that god was telling her to not be with anyone right now and she felt she should listen. Well I been trying to understanding and supportive but as of late I feel like I'm acting selfish and feeling sorry for myself something that has been annoying me and I have not been face to face with her since last Friday as I feel I need to give her space (but she has made the first contact with me on Facebook the last few days) and with everyday I keep getting more information on things like with her still having a slight crush on her ex and still having a huge one on me.
Well I have come to some sort of conclusion that she had lied about god telling her to not be in a relationship with anyone cause I have found out today that she had gotten back with her ex today. It really does upset me cause she was not just telling me but also some of her good friends as well that she should stay single like the lord ask her to, but then she tells just one person that god was telling her to go back to her ex.
Of course all of us did not believe this guy but after today it was reveled he was right. Right now I just feel so hurt at the fact that she had to lied and it really makes me question what we had was real at all.like for example we had hung out after school that Friday two hours before she broke up with me I really don't see why she could not do it then and not over Facebook. I guess in a sense her just telling me that she was breaking up with me for her ex would have hurt a lot less than having find out a week later and being lied to...