georgiaellenpri
Mar 23, 2011, 03:03 PM
Basically I am still so young, I know you may just see this and ignore it since I said that but... I had a boyfriend for 10 months a year ago, he was my first proper boyfriend and I we really made a go of it he claimed he loved to to pieces I was always a ***** and just was like thanks and fine... but we finished a year ago a 2 weeks later he had a new girlfriend which hurt large amounts but I always thought it was a rebound until my friend told me that the chain I bought him he is selling.. and how he shags countless amounts of girls and so on after seeing him all the time thought out the ten months he completely cut me out of his life :/
The pain I feel is uncontrollable I can barely cope its not just once in a while everyday.. my heart is breaking as if I am being stabbed I fall asleep crying on a regular basic, it kills me to see him happy but I am unable to forget I promise myself I will but I never do, I am a very loud person and happy but I think its all fake and when I am alone I feel so so alone I have the most amazing friends but Its so so hard... I can't find anyone else because I know I will compare them to the innocent love I once experience and I never would want anyone ever to feel like I doo... and its true you can love at any age and I do not want to live with a broken heart...
The pain I feel is uncontrollable I can barely cope its not just once in a while everyday.. my heart is breaking as if I am being stabbed I fall asleep crying on a regular basic, it kills me to see him happy but I am unable to forget I promise myself I will but I never do, I am a very loud person and happy but I think its all fake and when I am alone I feel so so alone I have the most amazing friends but Its so so hard... I can't find anyone else because I know I will compare them to the innocent love I once experience and I never would want anyone ever to feel like I doo... and its true you can love at any age and I do not want to live with a broken heart...