I am a woman. Married for 10 years. I have been suffering from Lupus many years ago and risked my life to have 2 kids. Both are still toddlers stage. My relationship with my husband have not been very good. He always treat me like ****. Throw temper to me as and when he likes. I bear with all his unreasonable attitude for all these years. Many times he will said he will try to control his temper, but only for a few minutes only.

Recently, I accidentally took his handphone by mistake (both of us are using iphone)Upon taking up the phone, I saw an SMS written " Darling, I have just finished watching a movie and missed you very much". I questioned him. He told over the phone and said he can't find SMS. I am annoyed and he said he will find out who send such an SMS. On the day itself, his friend SMS me and said he is the one using the computer to send the prank SMS, just to take a revenge on what my husband had did to him last time as a joke. He then send me one that is identical to the one SMS to my husband. After receiving it. I released the message is store inside the phone. I realized my is lying to me when he said he didn't see the message. I questioned him. He admitted he deleted immediately when he saw the message, thinking I will suspect him doing anything wrong.

I am very angry. I told him why have it deleted if his concision is clear!? He admitted his fault but sweared he didn't fool around. I initial a divorce, he refused. I then questioned what other things he have lied to me. Finally he admit that he have not returned the money to the bank which uses my money to borrow to pay down payment for our house. He promised me to return the money as soon as possible last time when we borrowed from the bank. Interest rate is high and hate to owe bank or other people money. Last time, when he want to come out from the company to set up his own business, I pawn away all my gold, jeweleries and give him all my saving to help him. I didn't asked for any returns. However, after one year, he said his company needed cash, I went and borrow money from my relative and sold our house and have to stay in other people house at the meantime.

He promised he will buy another one in future. Yes, we bought one, but using my name to borrow some from bank for down payment. Last month is our 10 years anniversary. He bought me a very expensive watch. I am not happy because I dun even wear a watch and he didn't even know it throughout all these years. He is so dumb. Dun we need to clear off debts first before buying luxury goods? I never ever asked anything from him!! That is not the end, he then disclosed that he have been smoking heavily for the last few years. He is not a person who smokes and hate smoking when I know him. I dun know why he have become like this!! He knows I hate people who smoke because my mum suffered from lung cancer years back and is still struggling with it. I am utterly disappointed with him. Despite crying, I dun know what else I can do. I feel like dying. I have many suitors before, rich and handsome ones, why would I married to a guy like that? I must be blind. What can I do now?? How am I going to solve all these ****. I want a divorce. I really have enough. What about my two kids?? Why things have become like this... I am speechless... I got nobody to say... dun even want to my parents to worry about me... Why me?

Before you ask yourself if you need to divorce him or not. Ask this question to yourself first: why do you allow yourself to sacrifice too much for a person who could not care less?