missrookia
Mar 12, 2011, 10:21 AM
LONG STORY GUYS.. we used to be together 4 years ago, his name is justin. It was when I was 17-19. He loved me so much it would make you jealous! But 6 months before we actually broke up, I started hanging with new people and started liking this other guy he's was friggin 24! Biggest mistake ever, he got me to drink at a party at his house and after a few weeks of that, I gave in and had sex for the first time ever. (justin and I never had sex for 2 years, still never) we only like... dry humping you could say.. haha I feel so bad though! He never asked me for the real thing that's why now I think he was really genuine and actually loved me.
I was 19 and I never got freedom, my dad was VERY abusive towards me and my sisters)anyways that guys broke up with me and 2 weeks later married his ex. Friggin bs. But, from there things went totally different. I went back to justin, he paid for my rent at the apartment I was living at with my friends. He asked if he could move in with me and I said no and he still paid the rent, my cell bill a year and a half after we broke up he bought me a neon I wanted, he put up his old mustang as leverage to get the loan to pay it off. Omg just typing these things are maing me feel worse. You could say I kind of pulled a guilt trip on him for 6 months.. I was a total ***** to him and I feel bad.
Later on after I had my daughter with another guy I worked with at my first job, we moved into an apartment, all hell broke loose. We got in huge arguments, broke up, got back to gether, whatever..
Justin!! His new gf's brother and his girlfriend lives at the same apartment as me! Better yet, same side. Gah-fml. It kind of made me excited, some nights it was nice outside id let my daughter rn across they car walk outside to the other building and he would end up showing up drunk after getting into an argument with his pregnant girlfriend. My daughter is 2 yrs old and justin always wanted kids, with me. I didn't at the time. Anyway she would drop her ball down stairs and hed bring it up to her and being so nice to her... after the second time she dropped it I went down to get it and he met me haf way up the stairs. He asked me to meet him by the pool in 5 minutes. I was going to but my boyfriend was home and another side of me thought, he's just drunk.. I really just wanted to tell him that I was sorry and stupid for what I did to him and that congrats on the soon to come baby. I never went down and from me not showing up after 35 minutes of him waiting for me he went back to his gfs bros apt and we never talked again.. we saw each other many of times but never talked again... well last night I had a dream of him, what could it be?
I'm so sorry about this whole story line, but I think itd help with the conclusion of why I'm having dreams of my ex boyfriend, maybe I feel guilt or maybe I want to be with him but I can't because I love my fiancé now.. I don't know what to do. People keep telling me crap like, if you have a dream about someone, they went to sleep dreaming about you. Bunch of bs to me. Just would like to know why this is happening and this has been going on for the past year. But happening a lot more for the past 3 months. What's wrong with me?
I was 19 and I never got freedom, my dad was VERY abusive towards me and my sisters)anyways that guys broke up with me and 2 weeks later married his ex. Friggin bs. But, from there things went totally different. I went back to justin, he paid for my rent at the apartment I was living at with my friends. He asked if he could move in with me and I said no and he still paid the rent, my cell bill a year and a half after we broke up he bought me a neon I wanted, he put up his old mustang as leverage to get the loan to pay it off. Omg just typing these things are maing me feel worse. You could say I kind of pulled a guilt trip on him for 6 months.. I was a total ***** to him and I feel bad.
Later on after I had my daughter with another guy I worked with at my first job, we moved into an apartment, all hell broke loose. We got in huge arguments, broke up, got back to gether, whatever..
Justin!! His new gf's brother and his girlfriend lives at the same apartment as me! Better yet, same side. Gah-fml. It kind of made me excited, some nights it was nice outside id let my daughter rn across they car walk outside to the other building and he would end up showing up drunk after getting into an argument with his pregnant girlfriend. My daughter is 2 yrs old and justin always wanted kids, with me. I didn't at the time. Anyway she would drop her ball down stairs and hed bring it up to her and being so nice to her... after the second time she dropped it I went down to get it and he met me haf way up the stairs. He asked me to meet him by the pool in 5 minutes. I was going to but my boyfriend was home and another side of me thought, he's just drunk.. I really just wanted to tell him that I was sorry and stupid for what I did to him and that congrats on the soon to come baby. I never went down and from me not showing up after 35 minutes of him waiting for me he went back to his gfs bros apt and we never talked again.. we saw each other many of times but never talked again... well last night I had a dream of him, what could it be?
I'm so sorry about this whole story line, but I think itd help with the conclusion of why I'm having dreams of my ex boyfriend, maybe I feel guilt or maybe I want to be with him but I can't because I love my fiancé now.. I don't know what to do. People keep telling me crap like, if you have a dream about someone, they went to sleep dreaming about you. Bunch of bs to me. Just would like to know why this is happening and this has been going on for the past year. But happening a lot more for the past 3 months. What's wrong with me?