yellowdodge
Mar 5, 2011, 04:01 AM
I'm doing my first year of engineering and I've noticed something: the people I help out with studies always get higher marks than me. I'm used to getting A's (though my marks didn't exceed 90%), so I think I'm quite good academically. Last week, I helped out a girl in computer programming, and she got 20/20 for that assignment while I got only 14/20. I'm not a really competitive guy now, I don't feel super jealous when I see other people getting higher marks than me. I wouldn't mind if I had obtained 18 or 19, but now I feel bad. I really want to get A's minimum, and I need more than 75% to get an A (I got 70% in that assignment). A week before that, I helped a guy for the physics homework, he obtained 8/10 while I got 7/10 (less than 75%, not A then). I feel really, really cheated. Am I being too helpful? Are people abusing me? I don't care if those people get ranked higher than me, I just want to get my A's.
In junior high, I was first in class, my marks were always 90+. I never helped people with assignments or anything. Okay, I was pretty much selfish, asocial, and arrogant. Now when I'm being nice and helpful, I feel cheated. And because I'm getting lower marks than the rest, I don't feel smart anymore. This is hurting my self-confidence. I'm not feeling like studying anymore.
In junior high, I was first in class, my marks were always 90+. I never helped people with assignments or anything. Okay, I was pretty much selfish, asocial, and arrogant. Now when I'm being nice and helpful, I feel cheated. And because I'm getting lower marks than the rest, I don't feel smart anymore. This is hurting my self-confidence. I'm not feeling like studying anymore.