Well I'm going to be brutally honest about myself well I'm 17 and 18 on July well since I turned 17 I haven't felt like myself since my family went threw a lot of changes especially with me and my mom me and her got closer but I had to give up so much to get my moms trust back and show her I'm not a bad person but I am I mean love to go out and party and get super drunk and I'm a sex freak and I love older men I've dated a few but I look older and I'll lied to them I'm older but I stop doing all of this for mom and because I'm still young and I don't want my mom to know I'm this kind of person I'm ashamed every one says I'm the odd one from my 5 sisters but I can't help and.I feel once I'm 18 I'm just going to start doing all of that again but it's something I can't help I haven't had friends or a drink or sex or a boyfriend in about a yr I feel like Im missing out on so much just to make my mom happy but what can I do that's the type of person I am I thought me stoping doing all of this in a yr was going to make me not want to do it any more but I just can't wait to do it again what can I do to change? Help!

Life isn't all about doing what we feel like doing. Don't compromise your values and ideals, but do compromise on what hurts you and others around you. Having drunken sex at parties is a great way to get diseases (some incurable), to pass them around, and to get pregnant. Having sex with older men when you are under 18 is a great way to get them arrested. Eventually you may feel that your life is meaningless if it doesn't already, and you may regret all this.
Time and time again we see young people going wild because of hurt. Something in family life hurt them, so they are out to show the world that they don't care, and also to punish those who hurt them and who now disapprove. If that might be you, look into some counseling.

Well yeahh I see where your coming but only some off it sounds like me yeah I'm hurt inside like a lot but I can't figure out why to many reason but I don't feel like what I'm doing is to hurt someone I just like because the only one I'm hurting is myself and one thing I don't do is have sex wit random guys at partys and yeah I understand I'm not being fair to the older men lying to them but this is stuff I like to do and want to stop so the only thing I think u were right was that I should try counseling but to try to change my life style

My thoughts are just thoughts, and I only have a little to go on anyway without knowing you.
I'm not condemning lots of sex as long as you are careful and as long as it's really what you want and don't feel driven to it.
If the part about deep down hurt is true, and you have no idea where it's coming from, then find out. Talk to someone.