Ok, so a year on from breaking up from my ex girlfriend I am still stuck in the same place..
It was a relationship that was already looking to come to an end after I had lied about a few things which we had sorted out, but one drunk night on my 19th birthday was the final straw. I kissed a girl and consequently my at the time girlfriend found out about it and she broke up with me. I was so in love with her and I think I still am but she has now moved on, I have tried talking to her on many occasions telling her how sorry I am and how much of a (insert insulting phrase here) I am lol. It has teared me apart for the past year but as usual I just smile and hope everything will be OK with the grace of god and I never thought to seek advice until now. I just feel like I can't move on fully until this is all sorted because I love this girl so much no matter what she says but in return it seems like she hates me beyond everything and I really can't blame her for the way I've acted, you can say I made a mistake and everyone mistakes just move on.. but I can't I've been trying but its all I think about it, I can't go on knowing that she hates me when she means so much to me, I've even held back from entering relationships just for the hope that one day she might just be nice to me for one day which may seem pathetic but it would make me so happy. Any help would be greatly appreciated thank you.

You want to sort this out for you, not for her. That's the bottom line.

You feel guilt over what you did. Her forgiveness really won't make a difference. She's done. She's moved on. She doesn't owe you anything. She doesn't need to allow you to ask for forgiveness. She wants to move on, so if you love her, let her.

If she hates you that's her right. It's harsh but true.

You've learned a valuable lesson. Hopefully you'll never again cheat on someone. If this is what it took to learn that lesson, than take that gift and move on. Know that you're a better person now. You don't need her to know that.

You really have to stop hoping that she'll forgive you. This may not ever happen, and putting your life on hold hoping that it will is counterproductive. Move on. Find peace within yourself, not with her words.

As you said the drunken kiss was the last straw of what seems like an already failing relationship. It would have ended any way over something or another. A year is way to long to blame yourself, because it takes two to succeed, and two to fail, so no doubt your ex did her share of mistakes too.

Forgive yourself, and promise to be good to yourself from now on because, you deserve it. Hey you have already made it for a year, start having some fun, so you can move beyond your past.

Sorry to say this but she hates you because you were an *** she put all her trust on you and you kiss another girl.. if shwas the one who cheat you would probably act the same way so for now let the time pass and do the job.. if you want to forget her don't talk about her don't talk to her find another girl and if she come again you would know what to do so good luck