OK so when I was younger I was bullied terrilbly and extremely shy due to the fact I had a rare skin disorder from the neck to my waist, I always felt "why me?" but then I eventually got over it I thought to myself "if theyre not gonna go away i mays well live with my scars" and live I did! I felt lucky that I didn't have scars on my arms or legs, then I discovered I actually had nice legs, my confidence built and I felt beautiful at times, but I was still very insecure and I still am (im 23) I lost my virginity at the age of 14 and ended up sleeping with more people than I can count, that's the first time I've ever actually said that to someone (or wrote it) I'm afraid to this day to try and count how many guys I actually slept with, I'm so ashamed, I fell for all their lies left right and sinker, I fell in love with any bloke that paid me any kind of attention and I gave them what they wanted and then got dumped every time, and for some reason I kept doing it! Why? I don't know why I kept doing it... I just can't get over it, I'm 23 now and I'm in my second serious relationship, when I turned 19 I met a lovely decent guy and we last 3 years and ended on good terms, then I met my current boyfriend and we're together a year now, but I can't forget my past, I never even got checked for an STD and I'm terrified of going to my doctor to get one, what if I have something? I also got pregnant once before and miscarried (blessing in disguise for me)

I'm glad you're on a better path now. It might set your mind at east to just go get tested and go forward in health. Some of the STDs can harm your fertility over time, so it's best to make sure you don't have any infections that need treatment. You might also benefit from a little time with a counselor to help you work through those painful feelings. If you're not already using good contraception, it's also a good time to get on some. You can take charge of what happens next, and I think some positive steps will really help you put the past away.

Hi sorry I should have mentioned I did actually get a lot of counselling over the years but that just one thing I can't get over, I know I should get a test done I think your right there, I will get one, I just need to stick to my decision, thank you :)