Elisabeth1967
Jan 2, 2011, 08:56 AM
My husband and I have been for all intents and purposses, happily married or 18 years.Right at the start of our relationship we laid our cards on the table; told each other of all our faults; this is me,warts 'n' all sort of idea and made a comitment to be open and honest with each other. I saw in him, and still do, a man that I would grow with, evolve with and share the rest of my life with. He was into so much that interests me and knows so much that I put him on a pedalstall and somehow lost a part of myself along the way. We met when my son was 5 months old and he proposed to me a couple of months later. Just before we were married he became bed ridden with fibromyalgia and I have been his carer ever since. He threw himself into reading and studying so he could be in a better position to get a career. About a year after our daughter was born, he had a nervous breakdown and told me to leave him. I wouldn't even contemplate it! He underwent counciling and we moved to Scotland to start a new life. Barely a couple of months after we moved we were in a terrible car crash and are very lucky to have come out of it alive. My husband had barely recovered before he was taking course after course and I looked after him and the kids. I have tried my hardest to give him what he needs and meet the needs of our children and he's doing his best to be in a position to provide for his family. He is again undergoing counciling for anger management. He has deep issues stemming from being sexualy abused as a kid and unfortunately his issues have effected the rest of the family. I also have my own issues stemming from an abusive mother and being brought up as a jehovahs witness, however I have concentrated so much on my husbands incredibly fragile ego that I've neglected my own needs and I'm finding myself unable to cope with the fact that my husband is having suicidal thoughts and tells me how cruel I am to him when I try to reason with him. I don't Know what to do any more. My health is getting worse; I have also been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and I'm feeling completely overwhelmed.