Betsiew
Jan 1, 2011, 04:57 PM
I was dating a guy for 2years until out of nowhere he dumped me. We were going to move in together and were always talking about our future. It was such a shock.. Even though he dumped me we still had a lot of contact. He never gave me the feeling that it was truly over. A month later I found out he had been sleeping with and dating another girl the day after we broke up. I was broken. I couldn't let him go. We were still meeting up and it usually seemed like nothing was going on..
All that has really changed is that he is mind****ing me. I'm fat, dumb and ignorant. Everything I think is wrong. These things he says 50% of the time, because the other 50 he is sweeter than sweet and the most loving guy ever.
Now, 4 months have passed and I'm still an emotional wreck . He says he still wants to see me, without us seeing other people. But not too much because I'll irritate him too much. The worst part is, no matter what ill do anything for him.. Bike 50min on Christmas eve to see him because he's alone, do schoolwork, be nice and loving without anything in return.. I feel like the weakest person in the world because I still believe he loves me, and that this is just a "phase" he is going through...
Why am I so weak?
All that has really changed is that he is mind****ing me. I'm fat, dumb and ignorant. Everything I think is wrong. These things he says 50% of the time, because the other 50 he is sweeter than sweet and the most loving guy ever.
Now, 4 months have passed and I'm still an emotional wreck . He says he still wants to see me, without us seeing other people. But not too much because I'll irritate him too much. The worst part is, no matter what ill do anything for him.. Bike 50min on Christmas eve to see him because he's alone, do schoolwork, be nice and loving without anything in return.. I feel like the weakest person in the world because I still believe he loves me, and that this is just a "phase" he is going through...
Why am I so weak?