Felngilti
Dec 4, 2010, 04:31 PM
Ok so I've been married for over twenty years. My kids are now in college (just barely). I love my wife but I feel I missed out on so much. Everything started so rocky but I stuck it out fist cuss I was in love after that cuss of the kids.
Here goes... During dating she cheated on me, broke off the wedding twice, was intensity to any of my needs. We got back together but I decided I wanted to finish college before we married. She said marry now or never so we did. I don't think she loved me. She was alone... Her friends dumped her.
After our second child was born she lost her weight and her interest in me. She secretly started sleeping with a coworker. She kicked me out of the house. I thought it was just about us not getting along. Two weeks later she asked me to come home and I did.
We rarely had sex...
Seven years go by and her mom gets sick... I help out a lot... After she passes away she feels guilty and tells me about the affair (also because she thought she had aids - she didn't)
Crushed I left for a year... We got back together (I wanted my kids to have a mother and father in the house)
Now they are grown. She does everything for me now. She loves me now. I have fears about starting a new life. Fears about hurting my kids. Fears about hurting her and fears about my family not accepting me and my decisions because the indiscretions were long in the past.
So leaving now... Makes me selfish? Am I to old to start over?
Not asking anyone to tell me what to do... Just your opinion
Thanks
Here goes... During dating she cheated on me, broke off the wedding twice, was intensity to any of my needs. We got back together but I decided I wanted to finish college before we married. She said marry now or never so we did. I don't think she loved me. She was alone... Her friends dumped her.
After our second child was born she lost her weight and her interest in me. She secretly started sleeping with a coworker. She kicked me out of the house. I thought it was just about us not getting along. Two weeks later she asked me to come home and I did.
We rarely had sex...
Seven years go by and her mom gets sick... I help out a lot... After she passes away she feels guilty and tells me about the affair (also because she thought she had aids - she didn't)
Crushed I left for a year... We got back together (I wanted my kids to have a mother and father in the house)
Now they are grown. She does everything for me now. She loves me now. I have fears about starting a new life. Fears about hurting my kids. Fears about hurting her and fears about my family not accepting me and my decisions because the indiscretions were long in the past.
So leaving now... Makes me selfish? Am I to old to start over?
Not asking anyone to tell me what to do... Just your opinion
Thanks