LN232
Nov 28, 2010, 04:34 PM
I'm a junior in high school and she's a year older than me. We're both pretty adult for our age, so don't write me off as another mixed up hormonal teenager that doesn't know what they want quite yet. When we met, we were both relatively experienced with dating. We had both had painful dating experiences in the not so distant past. I had always been the polite, funny, sweet type and she had previously been in an emotionally and borderline physically abusive relationship. We connected immediately and I asked her on a date. After said date (best date of my life so far) she was sent to live at her mom's house south of here for five weeks. I waited (and I did have other girls after me for the record). When she came back I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes. We're lesbians (we came out a year or two before we met). We were making plans to move in together after high school. But two months ago she left me. I will admit part of it was my fault, but I feel like her personal insecurities had a part in it as well. I was letting my life become miserable. I promised her I was going to fix everything, prove to her that I could be strong and stable for her. Two months later here I am. I have straight A's again, got a job, making progress in fixing the problems I have with my parents. We stopped talking for a little. I took this other girl out on a couple dates but I can't do it. I can't forget her. When I'm left alone with my thoughts all I can think about is her. I can't look at other girls that way anymore. We're talking again. I can tell she's considering getting back together. I can also tell she isn't sure and is being cautious. I just don't know what to do to reassure her and comfort her. But I really don't want to drive her away. Does anyone have any input on the situation? Normally my advice to someone my age would be to try to focus on other things and move on in life, but deep down I know I genuinely love this girl and could make a life beyond high school work with her. I need help.