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raganl
Nov 16, 2010, 10:28 PM
Sorry its long
I have a new boyfriend of 2 months. Things were good at first he was pretty attentive etc. Though he had a big drinking problem. He would get really drunk and then cll me constantly and abuse me. He drank pretty much everyday. He finally changed that and has not been drinking so much lately, and hasn't been completely drunk for a while. But lately he has been under a bit of stress. He has been reacting and getting really jealous of me lately. For example the other day I was in the shower. He then had a shower after me and came out acting different. I asked multiple times what was wrong. He then got distant and said that there was no steam in the bathroom so obviously I was calling some other guy. I didn't go off at him. Just calmly reassured him that I wasn't and that I just didn't have a really hot shower and that it was a ridiculous assumption. He kept on at me and no matter how much I insisted he was wrong and I was bawling my eyes out feeling alone he just got angrier. I was upset because lately I have been tied up in legal issues with him and he now knew where I lived (I tried to keep that from him for a while because of issues with past bfs). I only would let him know if he continued to try his best with the drinking and with the understanding me. But he just got worse.
The other day at work one of the old sleazy guys asked me out to lunch in a really round about way saying 'oh I went to this place the other day. It was pretty good. Ill take you there sometime.' Stupid me got caught off guard and instead of saying a flat out 'no' I said 'i don't ever have set lunch breaks so I don't know when I will ever be free.' I know I did wrong by not flat out refusing. And I even had told my boyfriend that I need to work on being assertive in situations like that about a month ago. I told my boyfriend and I said that I would go to the old guy and say no the next day. I understood that my boyfriend was worried and promised I would sort it out. He then left and asked for 10bucks to get food. I gave it to him and he went and got beer. He then rang me up and abused me saying I'm a stupid f-in ***** and that I am thick and worthless and I owe him big time. He threatened to go in and hit the old guy. I was really angry and told him it would ruin my job. He still threatened. I told him again I understand why he is angry but has no right to abuse me. He kept yelling he has every right.
He has also woken me up a few nights in the middle of the night to accuse me of cheating or yell at me because I wouldn't sleep with him. We would fight for hours on end and I would get no sleep. I am scared if I don't sleep with him that I will be woken up and not get any sleep again and again.
I am at the point where I want to leave. But I cant. He can ruin everything for me because of the legal stuff I was so stupid to get involved with him over. I made a huge mistake now and I don't know how to get out of it. The legal stuff can ruin my life including friends (which I don't see anymore) and family and my career.
I know its completely my fault I got tied up in the legal stuff. I also know its completely my fault that I went out with him.
This has to be the worst mistake I have ever made in my life. I was so selfish for thinking I could handle it all.

J_9
Nov 16, 2010, 10:36 PM
Run as fast as you can from this abusive control freak.

I know you have legal problems, but your funeral will be right around the corner if you don't leave.

People like this only escalate their behavior. Get to a woman's shelter as quickly as possible. They will not only protect you, but can help you with your "legal" problems.

Devorameira
Nov 17, 2010, 07:02 AM
Regardless of any legal issues, you've got to get out of there. Nothing is worth ruining your emotional and physical health for.

He's got you imprisioned and you need to move in with family or friends or move to a shelter FAST. He's definitely a dangerous guy!

mareadiva
Nov 18, 2010, 11:59 AM
If you contact the police or a local women's shelter they will be able to best advise you on this matter, the police can also help you to get out of where you're living, go to the nearest police station and ask to speak to someone and tell them what's been happening to you, or if you know of a women's shelter near where you live go there and ask them.
You do need to get away from this man though and sooner rather than later, he could turn physically violent towards you, this could result in him endangering your life. Don't let him know what you are intending to do, just go when he's not around, you do need to seek help from the police or a domestic violence association. Don't put it off, tomorrow could be too late.