OK, so I am 15 years old,

So there is this girl that I like and I want to get in a relationship, but the whole sex thing.. it's just so nerve breaking. What if I get in a situation where I am going to have sex with this girl? I am really nervous( I get nervous when talking to people over msn.. ) and what if I am so nervous that nothing happens down there? It just sucks when you like a girl that you get continues signs with and you can't make a move..


So that sounds kind of bad, but the worst is yet to come..

I mean I feel so terrible about this I have been suicidal at times,

I think I am gay/bisexual...

So like many of my friends I have been watching porn about every day or so for a long long time, and just this year I discovered that I enjoy.. this is really hard to say but I need help on this! I actually enjoy gay and bisexual porn.. I mean, for the last 4 months I have had an easier time getting it up and getting done faster watching you know, the wrong type of porn. I mean I still watch porn with girl in and stuff but everything goes slower if you know what I mean

So I don't know what the **** to do or think.. am I hetro? Am I bi? Am I gay? And what about this girl? **** my life I just want to be normal, my biggest dream is having
A family with wife and kids. How can I still achieve my dream?

By the way, something that I need to say is:

If you have taken the time and read this far then THANK YOU I honestly utterly appreciate it with all my soul.

You are 15.
Your hormones are all over the place at the moment. Getting an erection watching gay porn means nothing at this time.
Some guys your age get an erection doing the dishes.
Sexual acts of ANY kind are bound to get you going whether it be girl/girl boy/boy or girl/boy.

If you are bisexual then there's nothing wrong with that, it doesn't mean you can't date this girl if you want to... it doesn't change anything if you like her.

Onto the next subject... sex... at 15 that isn't a concern. You are still young, and although this often falls on deaf ears, not ready for sex.
Trust me, there's nothing wrong with waiting, and there's certainly nothing wrong with not wanting to be a father at the age of 15.
Kids come in time, when you are ready and when your partner is ready. I never even had a boyfriend until I was 18, and when I did finally 'snag my man' it didn't work out.
Oh yes, I was madly in love with him for months, then it just started to fall apart.

Now I'm 24 and happily living with my fiancé.

Basically my point is, there is no rush and no need to feel so much pressure about it all.

First, relax! You are only 15. Your body is just beginning to be sexual. There is so much to enjoy and explore and experience, so that everything is exciting and a turn-on. Just because you find yourself looking at gay porn doesn't mean you are gay. Your hormones and sexual self are all charged up, eager to see and do and experience pleasure.

That's where self-control comes in. Just because your body and mind want to do something doesn't mean you go along with it. If that were true, we'd all be in prison.

Take things slowly with girls -- and guys. Be friends, get to know them, hang out with them, talk with them about sports and cars and favorite books and hobbies and astronomy. Polish your conversation skills, engage your feelings of empathy, satisfy your curiosity, and desire to learn things without hurting yourself or others. Have fun and be open to new experiences that will improve your life.