Derubian
Aug 12, 2010, 07:36 PM
I am in High school grade 11 last year, in my school students are in groups which they stay on their high school years(that mean that I will take class with the same people all my high school years). I made friends with some girls from my group and we start fine having fun and everything. The time went passsing and I end falling in love with this girl. She is everything I like on girls pretty, sarcastic, witty, smart and listen etc... The thing is that I find out she is bisexual, and more inclined to girl, almost lebian. I was cool about it, I love her so I really don't mind. After some time my friends decided to confess secrets you know, and I promise to them that I will say who I like and I promise to her that she will know first. It was my turn and I say it to her in the ear. She was all red and nervous and for a momment I thought she like me back( she never say nothing about it again I was waiting for a answer and she just didn't say anything, I didn't want to look desesperate so I just wait she never told me). The thing is that is later reaveal that she like my best friend ( who is a girl) my best friend say she is not lesbian and it ended there. My best friend confess to me that she like my other best friend ( who is a guy) and I thought cool my best friends are going to become a couple. 2 week later I find out that my best friend ( the girl) is going out with the girl I like. I was schocked, I ask her how it happends and she said that the girl I like ask her to be her out on Facebook. I ask her what did you think when that happened? She say nothing I just say yes. I was confuse and angry I mean( you were in love with my best friend(the guy) and rejected the girl I like, and out of nowhere you just simply said yes?) I was not angry at the fact that my bestfriend(girl) was going out with the girl I like. More about the fact how my best friend(girl) did things. I found myself in bad position because my bestfriend(girl) and the girl I like, were all lovey dovey in front of me( I was uncorfomtable). I thought why should I be friend(girl) with someone who don't care about my feelings enough to think about me when she is going to answer yes to the proposal of the girl I like and the girl I like don't care about my feeling enough for her just to answer yes or no. So I decided that they were bad friends and I stop haging with them. At firs they came asking why I was been so aloof with them and everything I just say that I didn't know how to react in that position and I needed time. I haven't talk much with them. I started hanging with other people having fun, making myself busy to forget, I did well . The problem that a new year starter and I am in the same group with them so is hard to keep distance. The problem is that I'm starting to have doubt about my decisions and I need someone opinion of what should I do now? (I still have a little feeling for the girl I like)should I talk to them or keep the distance? Forget everything that have happened what should I do? I need someone opinion on this.( I never talk this with someone)