Spinach2
Aug 8, 2010, 05:04 PM
I've known this girl since 6th grade. We have often flirted (so I think). I hadn't seen her in about 3 years since we have been away at college. We have not really been in touch. She frequently asks my other friends about me and has even expressed among them that she "liked" me.
However, we hung out together for the first time about a week or so ago. She seemed very enthusiastic to see me. We hung out a couple times and I felt as though we had a connection. We went out drinking one night so things may have fueled our instincts for what happened next. My sister came and picked us up. I came inside apartment and she asked me that I could stay the night. I told her that I didn't want her to do anything that she would regret. (She has a boyfriend, but I don't think he treats her very well.) She responded "what would I regret?". I picked her head up and kissed her. Then she said "maybe you should go." I told her Ok and Goodnight and then I left.
I still feel like she let me kiss her even though she sent me away. Anyway, we still spent the next couple of days together and she even asked me to breakfast the next day via text which I slept though. We never mentioned the kiss to one another. There was tension in the air, and it seemed as though she had a hard time looking me in the eyes after that. She is very hard to read seeing as how she is so flirtatious. Plus I was afraid that bringing up the topic would change our friendship, because more than anything that comes first in a relationship. It is just so hard to watch someone you care about grow without you.
She left town today and I'm leaving soon so we are going in different directions. It hardly seems practical to invest so much emotional energy into such a situation but I really can't help myself. I like her and really always have. I think it seems desperate to confide in her that I feel the way I do. I even feel the same way airing out my emotions via the internet. I really would like an opinion on the situation because I really don't want to nor can I afford to feel the sadness I feel since she has left. I don't love her but that doesn't mean I couldn't. I really don't feel as though I know her seeing as how we have spent so much time apart. I really just want to tell her I miss her, but I don't want to smother her and I don't want that stupid boyfriend speech where I end up sounding like the creep for liking a girl with a boyfriend. I just think she deserves whatever she wants. I just want her to want me.
How do I go about this? Does she like me? Have I been mislead? Will I confuse her? Is it worth it? Am I under the influence of assumption? These are all things I would like to know and I've been racking my brain about the possibilities. I would like some help. Please let me know what you think.
However, we hung out together for the first time about a week or so ago. She seemed very enthusiastic to see me. We hung out a couple times and I felt as though we had a connection. We went out drinking one night so things may have fueled our instincts for what happened next. My sister came and picked us up. I came inside apartment and she asked me that I could stay the night. I told her that I didn't want her to do anything that she would regret. (She has a boyfriend, but I don't think he treats her very well.) She responded "what would I regret?". I picked her head up and kissed her. Then she said "maybe you should go." I told her Ok and Goodnight and then I left.
I still feel like she let me kiss her even though she sent me away. Anyway, we still spent the next couple of days together and she even asked me to breakfast the next day via text which I slept though. We never mentioned the kiss to one another. There was tension in the air, and it seemed as though she had a hard time looking me in the eyes after that. She is very hard to read seeing as how she is so flirtatious. Plus I was afraid that bringing up the topic would change our friendship, because more than anything that comes first in a relationship. It is just so hard to watch someone you care about grow without you.
She left town today and I'm leaving soon so we are going in different directions. It hardly seems practical to invest so much emotional energy into such a situation but I really can't help myself. I like her and really always have. I think it seems desperate to confide in her that I feel the way I do. I even feel the same way airing out my emotions via the internet. I really would like an opinion on the situation because I really don't want to nor can I afford to feel the sadness I feel since she has left. I don't love her but that doesn't mean I couldn't. I really don't feel as though I know her seeing as how we have spent so much time apart. I really just want to tell her I miss her, but I don't want to smother her and I don't want that stupid boyfriend speech where I end up sounding like the creep for liking a girl with a boyfriend. I just think she deserves whatever she wants. I just want her to want me.
How do I go about this? Does she like me? Have I been mislead? Will I confuse her? Is it worth it? Am I under the influence of assumption? These are all things I would like to know and I've been racking my brain about the possibilities. I would like some help. Please let me know what you think.