Hi my name is cameron I'm only 12 years old and already experincing deep depression I have a 16 year old brother his name is jared and loving parents me and my brother both are treated like kings your probably wondering why my life is spiraling into hell it started about 4years prier to the day I write this my brother and I were well like iny other brother to brother relationship I was 9 and he was 12 one night me and my parents were watching a show my brother was hangin with his new friend Michael he walked in to the famialy room and asked for a pack of bandanas so my mom got him a pair later: my mom was cleaning his room and she found a note it must have been terible for her in his hand writing it talked about a gang with him and michel they were planing on knifeing a group of people... two months later my mom me and jared were on vacation jared stole 50$ out of my moms purse he was aqused and felt terible then a few months later he stole more and felt less bad and continued to this day he still does iny way after that he begain flunking so we spent 1000 of dollars which nearly made us bankrupt to sending him to a private school he still flunked so my mom did her best she tried tutors and she finally decided to tape his room and when she listened to the recordings and found out he thought of her as a b**** a** c*** while he was doing marajuana she cried and cried and me 10 years old had to watch my mommy and hold her later on in life it just got worse he did more hard core drugs got suspended 6 times called my parents the most terrible cuse words words that I now 11 had no clue what they were and he begain phisically abusing my mom he got so ubrupt one day he grabed all of are glass plates and threw them at my mom cusing I think he was on a roid rage that day you probably think how could it get iny worse well it did he gave up on judiesim that's not a bad thing but then he became a satin worshiper he continued to steal and the drugs got even more serious like shroons and crack and he begain selling drugs he tried beating up my dad one day I was being picked up to go to temple surprise he had a butcher knife to my dads head when I opened the door cusing fluried out mainly to me we ended up calming him to the point where he just ran away that night the next week me my mom &my dad went to the movies when we left 911 called us telling us jared 15 years old took my moms 2 week old honda accord for a little joy ride that night he left through his windows and broke up cars tped houses stole a few things while smoking cigerettes according to the neighbors so we chose to send him to the 2nd to best place for him jarf.

Your parents will have to decide to press charges for his assult and stealing the car and let him go to jail.

There only so much you can do for a person and with him starting sooo young, he's just going to have to learn for himself. Even though he is still considered as a child and you and your parents love him dearly, you may just have to show him tough love by avoiding physical contact with him. I know it may be hard, but it seems that what'll be best for you and your parents. I really hope everything works out.

Your brother seems to have chosen his lot in life. He needs to be in jail and not a danger to your family and a bad influence on you.
Talk to your parents about what you are feeling, maybe they will have a professional for you to talk to so you can sort out your feelings.