Hello again :) And.. Once again, sorry if it's long.

RECAPPING:
All right, I'm going to quickly sum up a few things first. Concering my first question, https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/relationships/madeout-best-friend-both-girls-just-benefit-love-what-481759.html, where I ended up in a romantic situation with my best friend.. This has all been sorted out. Thank you for your answers. :)

With my second question, https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/internet-web/using-blog-vent-good-idea-bad-idea-other-ideas-suggestions-482081.html , I asked if getting a blog would be a good idea to vent out things. Again, thank you for the answers. And, no, I will not be getting a blog of any sort. BUT, nor will I be doing any writing and tearing up papers, etc. Right now, I have my best friend who listens and helps me out as some of the things she can relate to.

QUESTION:
Lately, I've been going through a lot of stressful things. What with attempting to come out to a couple close friends, school ending and being worried about passing, things in my home life, and a few other problems.
It's hard to write about right now, since it was so recent.
A few weeks ago, I started cutting. I only did it seriously for a week. In the past, I've gotten frustrated and scratched myself with my nails or my school I.D. card, but I never thought much of it, but it suddenly got worse. I knew it was wrong. It's not a healthy way to deal with problems, I know. It's harmful and leaves scars that will leave me with regret later on down the road, I know. But I kept doing it. I got mad at myself for I don't even remember now and I went straight to cutting. Right now, I have scars going in every direction across my hand, scars on my ankles, my feet, my thigh. The only reason they're heling is because I knew I had to stop. With this thought, I took the thing I was using and I hid it from myself.
I occasionally forget where it is... but I always know. I decided I would give it to a close friend so it's not in my possession but it keeps slipping my mind. The only thing keeping me from cutting now is that I'm too lazy to go get it, and if I show up with any more cuts on my hands my mom will send me away to counseling (so she says).
I've tried heading off to church with my friend a couple times, but each time I go, I end up crying my eyes out.
I don't know what to do with myself. I haven't been getting to sleep well, I'm forgetting to eat. When I do eat, it's only because I know I have to.
From what I have looked up, insomnia is when you having trouble falling or staying asleep and can be caused my stress.
My question is.. how do I get back into the normal swing of things?

I'm sorry that the train off thought kind of... crashed and is all over the place towards the end. The other questions were easier to write.

Young lady, I feel strongly that it is time for you to find a professional person such as a psychologist , or counselor , or Doctor to help you through this stressful and confusing part of your life that you are going through.
I have read your previous questions and you have been handling things well. Up to now.

The transition from teen to adult is a difficult time at best. So many changes physically and mentally taking place can cause a loss of perspective and reality in many situations.
Find a professional as soon as possible and have them help you get through this. Please don't let it progress any further into destructive and damaging behavior like cutting.

I can tell by what I have read in your questions that you are intelligent , caring and a good person. The world needs people like you. Find someone to talk to about it and please do it soon.

Also I am sure you will have the help and support of the many wise , caring, and intelligent people on this site.

I wish you peace and happiness , and have have faith that you will find it.

Young lady, I feel strongly that it is time for you to find a professional person such as a psychologist , or counselor , or Doctor to help you through this stressful and confusing part of your life that you are going through.
I have read your previous questions and you have been handling things well. Up to now.

The transition from teen to adult is a difficult time at best. So many changes physically and mentally taking place can cause a loss of perspective and reality in many situations.
Find a professional as soon as possible and have them help you get through this. Please don't let it progress any further into destructive and damaging behavior like cutting.

I can tell by what I have read in your questions that you are intelligent , caring and a good person. The world needs people like you. Find someone to talk to about it and please do it soon.

Also I am sure you will have the help and support of the many wise , caring, and intelligent people on this site.

I wish you peace and happiness , and have have faith that you will find it.

Thank you.. It would be proper to seek professional help on my part.. But if I did, then I would do nothing expect feel quilty of my parents having to spend money on counseling and all that. I want to be happy, sleeping well, and functioning right but it has to be on my own. I can't involve my parents.

Thank you.. It would be proper to seek professional help on my part.. But if I did, then I would do nothing expect feel quilty of my parents having to spend money on counseling and all that. I want to be happy, sleeping well, and functioning right but it has to be on my own. I can't involve my parents.

But your parents love you and also want you to be happy. And sometimes we need a little help getting back on track. I understand not wanting to seek professional help, but don't close your mind to it just yet. Depression and other mental health issues are like any other illness, sometimes you really do need to talk to your doctor about them.

Even though I still think you should see your doctor, in the meantime, taking a melatonin tablet might help you with your sleeping. You should be able to buy them at your local drug store or grocery store. Don't take them all the time. Just a couple nights until your sleep cycle is back on track. If you need it longer than that, that's another sign that you really need to speak with your doctor. Maybe a good night's sleep will help with the rest.

even though i still think you should see your doctor, in the meantime, taking a melatonin tablet might help you with your sleeping. you should be able to buy them at your local drug store or grocery store. don't take them all the time. just a couple nights until your sleep cycle is back on track. if you need it longer than that, that's another sign that you really need to speak with your doctor. maybe a good night's sleep will help with the rest.


Melatonin, eh? I'll try to see if I can get some. Thank you.
Offtopic: Hah, All my problems are solved with 'M'. I already take magnesium supplements to prevent migraines. And melatonin now for sleeping. C:

I am not in the medical profession but I know that you need help from them. Any Dr. can help if it is only to refer you to the right professional. This is not something to keep fom your parents. It is not likely to improve without treatment.

Thank you.. It would be proper to seek professional help on my part.. But if I did, then I would do nothing expect feel quilty of my parents having to spend money on counseling and all that. I want to be happy, sleeping well, and functioning right but it has to be on my own. I can't involve my parents.

Life presents us all with situations that simply cannot be handled on our own for various reasons. The situation you are in calls for some professional help. You say it would be proper to seek this and it is.

You say you would feel guilty about your parents spending money on that.. that should not be an issue. Many organizations and government programs offer help at no charge or you pay on a scale according to income but... legally all require parental consent when you are under 18 or 21 depending on where you are
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But I'll bet your parents concern will be about your well being and not about money .
We all have to do things we don't want to at times. This may be one of them for you. Please give this some thought.