I have made a lot of mistakes in my dating life. I am deeply sorry for some of my actions and I really want to change. I used to think that the problems in my relationships had to do with the fact that I always dated the wrong ladies. But now I see and accept that I am also a major part of the problem. I actually dated some ladies with good intentions on my part but the same ladies started taking me for granted to the extent that I myself started losing it unknownwingly. Unfortunately, it's the ones that really loved me that have suffered most ever since. Things became so bad all this while that I couldn't even see it. I became an... I even let go of someone that mattered most to me because she wasn't "perfect". I have been sober ever since but feel I deserve it. Im also ashamed.I know deeply there is a side of me that wants to love and be loved unconditionally. I might not deserve better but I want to change and have a clean start.

Life is always about living and learning. It sounds like you're doing just that. It's great that you're noticing this and not just continuing down the same path. Problems in relationships more often than not are on both ends.

Was there a specific question in there that I missed?

Do it, don't talk about it.

True actions speak louder than words.

We all make mistakes, and now its time to move on. We learn and grow from them.

Everyone has past experiences they wish they had done differently.

Just learn from the past and it will create a better future.